Good morning Sweet Baby, yesterday was pretty good, now this morning started off bad, with a crying fit. Sometimes Im not crying because I miss you the person that I lost. It's the hole you left in my life feels like a piece of glass cutting me open........ You think it will be long before I can join you? I can't wait to see those beautiful eyes, that I can get lost in. I LOVE & MISS YOU. You were my WORLD and MY SOUL MATE. Later
Friday, August 27, 2010

Hey there, yesterday was not to bad until the evening. I text Paula about you and she call back in a fit. I talk to her about you for an hour and I cried for an hour. I hope after this benefit for your dad is over I will be able to get some relief or maybe not. I'm trying to get caught up on my work, not doing a good job of it. Courtney is now a full time student at Lamar. She said in Hi School she was the youngest in her classes, now she says she's hoping shes not the oldest. LOL I do LOVE YOU SO. Talk to you tomorrow. You know soon I will have to stop this writing if I'm ever going to move on, but I cant right now. I think I'll start a journal, but you see I want people to know how much I truely loved you. You were my life and I'm not ever going to forget you. Later
Thursday, August 26, 2010

Yesterday and last night was awful. I dont know what I'm going to do, I just cant get pass this pain and empty feeling. You would think God would help me a little more or maybe it not God maybe its me not wanting to let go, I know I cant go on like this for much longer. I'm trying hard to hold on for Shelby. If it wasnt for Shelby!! Maybe today will be good or fair. Its going on 8 weeks there should be some relief or maybe there is I just dont feel it. LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER . My heart is broken. Maybe someday God will tell me why such a short time and so much love. I wish he would have waited until after our wedding. I would love to be a Meadows!!!! later my love
Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Yesterday when good, just cried a little, when to counselor back on once a week. I dont think I told you but I called Steve Little on your birthday, hope you didnt mind. But I need to talk to someone that Love you as much as I did. Im going around to shops trying to get things to auction off for the benefit. I hope today goes good. I LOVE AND MISS YOU, HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, August 24, 2010

As you could tell yesterday was bad. Hopely Monday will be better. Got a text from Timi, Cant wait until Saturday when I can See her. Your Dad's Benefit is then.I hope I lose some weight so my pants will fit. Im so lonely for you, they keep telling me its going to get better, but it dont. I decide not to fix the Miata, because the car maybe to dangerous for a 16 year old. Im think about buying your truck for her. Got work to do write later, LOVE U !!!!!LATER
Monday, August 23, 2010