Travis Lee Meadows

Good morning Sweet Baby, yesterday was pretty good, now this morning started off bad, with a crying fit. Sometimes Im not crying because I miss you the person that I lost. It's the hole you left in my life feels like a piece of glass cutting me open........ You think it will be long before I can join you? I can't wait to see those beautiful eyes, that I can get lost in. I LOVE & MISS YOU. You were my WORLD and MY SOUL MATE. Later

Hey there, yesterday was not to bad until the evening. I text Paula about you and she call back in a fit. I talk to her about you for an hour and I cried for an hour. I hope after this benefit for your dad is over I will be able to get some relief or maybe not. I'm trying to get caught up on my work, not doing a good job of it. Courtney is now a full time student at Lamar. She said in Hi School she was the youngest in her classes, now she says she's hoping shes not the oldest. LOL I do LOVE YOU SO. Talk to you tomorrow. You know soon I will have to stop this writing if I'm ever going to move on, but I cant right now. I think I'll start a journal, but you see I want people to know how much I truely loved you. You were my life and I'm not ever going to forget you. Later

Yesterday and last night was awful. I dont know what I'm going to do, I just cant get pass this pain and empty feeling. You would think God would help me a little more or maybe it not God maybe its me not wanting to let go, I know I cant go on like this for much longer. I'm trying hard to hold on for Shelby. If it wasnt for Shelby!! Maybe today will be good or fair. Its going on 8 weeks there should be some relief or maybe there is I just dont feel it. LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER . My heart is broken. Maybe someday God will tell me why such a short time and so much love. I wish he would have waited until after our wedding. I would love to be a Meadows!!!! later my love

Yesterday when good, just cried a little, when to counselor back on once a week. I dont think I told you but I called Steve Little on your birthday, hope you didnt mind. But I need to talk to someone that Love you as much as I did. Im going around to shops trying to get things to auction off for the benefit. I hope today goes good. I LOVE AND MISS YOU, HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON!!!!!!!!!!

As you could tell yesterday was bad. Hopely Monday will be better. Got a text from Timi, Cant wait until Saturday when I can See her. Your Dad's Benefit is then.I hope I lose some weight so my pants will fit. Im so lonely for you, they keep telling me its going to get better, but it dont. I decide not to fix the Miata, because the car maybe to dangerous for a 16 year old. Im think about buying your truck for her. Got work to do write later, LOVE U !!!!!LATER

Hey, Sweetie, when to Wildwood this morning to get a chain saw so I can work in the flower bed tomorrow. Got to go to a ACTS retreat tonight. Your friends from High Island are at Sandy's today, they went Canoe riding, if you were here we could have gone. Gosh, I miss you so much. You know if I knew that there was passion in heaven I might could get alone better, but knowing that there more than likely not, Im having a hard time. Maybe there is something better. GOD WHY YOU TAKE MY LEE????? LOVE YOU LEE, LATER!!!!

When to go get Meagan this morning so I can take her to her counselor at 11:00 today. I cut all the bush down in front of the house last night going to make a new flower bed. Im going to take your autopsy to my friend that is a doctor so she can explain it to. I got a birthday party for a great Niece Jordon tonight. If you were here you could go with me and meet the other side of my family. I got a lot of work to catch up on, have not done much since you left. I LOVE YOU FOREVER, MY LOVE. LATER!!!!

Good morning my love, my lip is big this morning, I sure dont need my lips done. I talk to Timi yesterday. I dont think she is mad at me any more about openning your autopsy. Meagan and me when shopping yesterday and I took her to work. She is a good kid and I love her. She misses you too. Got to go to work, Love you my love. LATER

Hey, baby, well I got your intials under the pig!!LOL I also got a semi Meadows Dot, my dot is with a piercing after it heals I will replace stud with a diamond. You would love it. Some of the days are getting alittle better, at least I dont cry all the time just some of the time. Since I got the intials done and the dot, I have nothing to do to keep you near, might get hard again for a while. I LOVE YOU MUCH AND MISS YOU MUCH. AND WANT TO SEE YOU SOON, SOON SOON!!!GOD WHY LEE? He was my life!! Later my love

Well, I made it through your Birthday Sunday; I put six long stem yellow roses in the pond for you. One for each month we were together. I got your autopsy back from the sheriff's department. Monday was suppose to be our Wedding Day. I will LOVE YOU FOREVER and I DO.