Travis Lee Meadows

Death changes everything,
Time changes nothing. I still
miss the sound of your voice,
the wisdom in your advice,
the stories of your life
and just being in your presence.
So no, time changes nothing.
I miss you just as much today as
I did the day you died.
I just miss you.
Thinking of you my love. Until My Heart Stops Beating........

Death changes everything, Time changes nothing. I still miss the sound of your voice, the wisdom in your advice, the stories of your life and just being in your presence. So no, time changes nothing. I miss you just as much today as I did the day you died. I just miss you.

You are forever enbedded in my soul, I will never let you go......Until my heart stops beating......

Hey, Sweetie, my heart aches for you. Why.....Why.....I wished God had took me instead of you. This pain is unreal. I really need for you to pass threw my soul again. The feeling is unreal. I will love you Lee UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING....AND MAYBE LONGER

Well, Sweet Baby, it's coming up on the day that you passed. It's been 6 years, seems like 6 days, my love for you goes on. I wished I would have married you the first time you asked. I would have your name at least. I know ya'll are having a ball, but don't forget about me. I Love you, Lee Meadows forever.

Hey, Babe, well, I met someone, he reminds me of you. You know loving you was easy. I want to cry, I feel like I'm cheating. But I know its what you would want me to do. But I'll never stop writing you or LOVING YOU..Until My Heart Stops Beating....

The moment that you left me
my heart was split in two;
one side was filled with
memories; the other side
died with you.

I often lay awake at night when
the world is fast asleep;
and take a walk down memory
lane with tears upon my cheek.

Remembering you is easy.
I do it everyday;
but missing you is a heartache
that never goes away.

I hold you tightly within my heart
and there you will remain;
you see. Life has gone on
without you, but will never be
the same.

I love you Lee, until my heart stops beating.......

The moment that you left me.
my heart was split in two;one side was filled with
memories. the other side
died with you.

I often lay awake at night when
the world is fast aslleep/
and take a walk down memory
lane with tears upon my cheek.

Remembering you is easy
I do it everyday;
but missing you is a heartache
that never goes away
I hold you tightly with my heart
and there you will remain;
you see, life has gone on
without you, but will never be
the same.

I love you, Lee Meadows

Your wings were ready, But my heart
was not.

Gosh, I miss you Lee. It's been six years, will this sick feeling ever go away. I Love you, Until My Heart Stops Beating.

Hey, sweet thing, gosh, I miss you. You were one in a million.

I wish I could turn back
the clock. I'd find you
sooner and love
you longer.

You know I'm coming to be with you, will you just about got all your loves but me there. Untl My Heart Stops Beating.......Love ya!!

Hey, Sweetheart, I'm in love with that smile. I wish you could hold me one more time. I wish I could have loved you sooner, so I could have loved you longer. I think of you daily. I just have a hard time letting you go. You were my man, my love, and my soul mate. Until we meet again, I will love Until My Heart Stops Beating.......Wait for me.

Hey, Sweetie, Well how was your birthday? Well, you got them all with you now. Your daddy, mother, sister, niece, and nephew. Everybody but me. I hope things are good for you. I still miss you everyday. I hope Paula and Patsy gets theirs when they enter the gates of Heaven....If there is any justice at all they will. Until My Heart Stops Beating. Wait for me........

Hello, Sunshine.

I hide my tears when I say your name,
but the pain in my heart is still the same.
Although I smile and seem care free,
There is no one who missis you
.....more than me!!!

I'll always love you, Lee. Until My Heart Stops Beating.....

Hey, Sunshine, let me see that sweet smile. Today has been 5 years since you left me. God I loved you, to the moon and back.

Grief never ends...But it changes. It's a passage, not a place to stay. Grief is not a sign of weakness, nor a lack of faith...It is the price of LOVE...

I have paid that price, a hundred times over.

When we first met, I had no idea you'd become this important to me. I wish I could turn back the clock. I'd find you sooner and love you longer.

One of the most difficult tasks in life is removing someone from your heart....But I guess you are in there and always will be. I love you, Lee, Until My Heart Stops Beating.........Wait for me.
You think you could pass thru my soul again?

Hey, babe, I'm getting things ready to go to the beach. Do you remember when I told you; you walked throught my soul. You think you could do while I'm at the beach? It is the most amazing feeling in the world. I miss your beautiful smile and strong arms. Well, I guess everybody you love except me, are with you. Wait for me. I love you with all my heart and soul, Until My Heart Stops Beating.

I LOVE YOU, LEE MEADOWS....With all my heart and soul, Until My Heart Stops Beating.

Hey, baby, tell me you love me one more time. If I only could hear you. I want a phone in heaven, so I can call you when I'm up against the wall. I need you so much. Next month, I will take my yearly trip to the beach, to let go of some balloons for you. The days get longer, I'm getting the age, that it won't be long before I can come meet you in heaven. Then things will be better. I'll be 71 this year, but I want you to know I look 50. LOL I love you Until My Heart Stops Beating.

Hey, sunshine, missing you today. But I miss you everyday. My heart aches for you and that beautiful smile you have. Know that I will always love you.

My mind knows that you are in a better place
Where there is no pain
You are at peace
I understand that
I just wish I could explain it to my HEART.

UNTIL MY HEARTS STOPS BEATING.......

Well I don't know what happen, so I will finish what I was saying , It says: This is my shirt I used to wear. Whenever you hold it know that I am there. Love Lee.
The hole in my heart is so big I will never be able to fill it, so, I'm not going to try. Know that I think of you everyday. And miss you everyday. I love you, my love, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING........

Hey, Sweet Baby, lets see that beautiful smile. Still miss you everyday. You were my soul mate. Still don't know what God was thinking when he took you from me. I haven't seen Tammy or Sammy or Toni in a long time. I hope to go see them when it gets warmer. I love you with all my heart and soul. Until My Heart Stops Beating

Well, it's Christmas, missing you as always. My angel, Shell, is trying me out. I could look at your smile for ever. It is so hard to go on with out you. I know you are happy, I just don't know what God was thinking. Missing you........Until my heart stops beating........

Hey, sweet baby,
I still miss you
As the days and years pass
I still miss you
As the pain of grief pass
I still miss you
As new memories are made
I still miss you
As I smile and laugh
I still miss you
Today and everyday
I still miss you..........

I will Love you, Until my heart stops beating........

Hey, well, I spend the 2nd in bed still can't make. Did you catch my balloon. Got to go, talk later

Missing you, love.

Sometimes I smile...
I know you're near.
It's not enough,
You are not here.

You left with LOVE
when you flew away,
And a piece of me
went with you that day.

The years roll by
I'm not the same.
But in my heart
You will remain.

Until My Heart Stops Beating. Wait for me.......

Hey, Sweet Baby, been a long time. But that don't mean anything, I still think of you every day. It's coming up on 4 years since what ever happen to you happened. I guess I'll never know what really happen. But know that I love you and miss you like you wouldn't believe. That smile keeps be going everyday. Until my heart stops beating.

The most painful tears are not the ones that fall from your eyes and cover your face.
Its the ones that fall from your heart and cover your soul. I love you, Lee, with all my heart. Until my heart stops beating. Wait for me.

Hey, Sunshine, I just love that wonderful smile you have. I could look at this picture for hours at a time. I'm going to take sometime off and go see your brother, Sammy and Tammy, and Toni Jean. Its been awhile since I have seem them. Well, its coming up on 4 years, you know time doesn't change the pain, it just teaches you to live with it. I know I need to move on, but I just can't. I just won't except the fact that you are gone, I just can't let go of you, my love. REMEMBER, I will love you UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me, my love.....I love you, Lee with all my heart and soul.

You think I will ever get pass this? Loving you was the high light of my life. Until my heart stops beating.

Well, the new year is on the go. I hope to change my life. I love and, miss you something awful...I'm thinking of selling my house. I hope to find a one bedroom house...I'm depressed write later. Until my heart stops beating......

Hey, thank goodness the holidays are over. Lets see that wonderful smile. My heart aches today, well to tell the truth it hurts everyday. I'm leaving for McAllen Monday. Joy told me to bring my passport I guess we are going to Mexico. When I get back its going to be busy busy. I love you, Lee, until my heart stops beating. I need you to pass thru my soul one more time. Wait for me, my love.

Hey Sunshine, Boy if I could see that smile just one more time, I would be a happy happy happy girl.... Next week I'm going to New Orleans with Court for three days. I'll get back late on the 19th, and then I need to get ready for my Christmas party on the 22th. Everyday I look at this smile and wonder why??? I know your sick of hearing this, but I just can't let go....Until my heart stops beating!!!!!! I love you. Wait for me.

Happy Thanksgiving, my love. Gosh, I wish you were here will things ever be the same again....UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.....

Hey, Sunshine, lets get a camper and go to the beach for a week. You know one of those little bitty ones, like before. The holidays are here, wish you were, it would feel great it I could feel you go thru my soul again. Until my heart stops beating. Wait for me.
A million times, I've needed you
A milion times I've cried,
If love alone, could have saved you
You never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly, In death I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place,
No one else can ever fill.
It broke my heart to lose you,
But you didn't go alone
Part (Most) of me went with you,
The day God took you home.

Long time since we talked. But you are fresh in my soul and heart. Things aren't going good, but surely they will soon. I miss your beautiful smile and your warm arms around me. I know there will come a day when living without you won't be so painful, just don't know when. I love you with all my heart and soul, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING....Wait for me.....

You are going to love this.....I felt you flow through my soul yesterday, it was the greatest feeling I have had in ages. I know you are gone and are never coming back, but I still just can't let go. I'm not going to get all sad now, I just miss you something awful. But it you can keep them feelings in my soul, I might can make it. I'm working in my yard again, trying to get moved back in my house. Know that I love you, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING AND THEN SOME. Wait for me......

Hey, Sweet Baby, Gosh, I miss you.
Someone will always be prettier, Someone will always be smarter,Someone will always be younger, BUT THEY WILL NEVER BE YOU. I'm going to Mississippi for a theatre show, leaving Thursday be back some time Saturday. I think of you often. Missing your arm around me while I sleep, you were my heart and soul....Love you, Until my heart stops beating.

we wanted to tell u happy birthday.although ur not here we still feel u and miss u soo much.guess you and mom are celebrating yalls birthdays together.hard to believe u have been gone three years.timis there with u,mom,and dad.soo we are sending u and them our love.miss yall soo much.till we meet again know yall r missed and very much loved.ur brother and sister-in-law sammy &tammy

Hey, Sunshine, you will always be my Sunshine, with that smile... I'm getting ready to go to McAllen in a week, and then on August 30, thru September 3, we are going to the beach....Can't hardly wait... I had a bad week last week and this week is not any better, your birthday and our wedding day and your mother's birthday coming up. I guess I need to give up on trying to figure out what God was thinking when he took you. It's about time to watch our movie again.....I'm getting caught up on my work, thank goodness. I Love you with all my heart and soul, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING..........Wait for me.....

Well, three years today, we kissed and I said, " See you later." My heart still hurts like it was yesterday...I was at the beach, and my computer wouldn't work there. So, I didn't get to say Hello on the 2nd. Just because I don't write every day doesn't mean that I have forgotten you. It just hurts so damn much...I LOVE YOU, LEE, WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.....Wait for me, my love.........

You know I though things couldn't get any worst for Meagan, she lost her Mother, You her brother died in 7/02/2010, her daddy died 4 weeks after you, her sister Timi died 6 months after that and now her 3 month old daughter, Mackinzie, pass on June 5, You know I just can't figure out what God wants from this girl..You know she wants to know what she did wrong, what do I say??? Meagan was a wonderful mother...But I guess you have already meet our sweet baby...You meet her at the gates, you will just love her, she was so sweet, sugar wouldn't melt in her mouth. LOL Lee, take care of our baby girl. Know that I love you with all my heart and soul......UNITL MY HEART STOPS BEATING......Wait for me.......

Gosh, My heart is broke today, its just not fair..........You were one of the best thing in my life. I love you, baby.....

Well, its been almost two months since I wrote. I have been so busy, you wouldn't believe it. I went to Shelby's FFA Benefit and she got 6 awards, Then on May 27, her school had their awards and Shelby got 9. For some reason, Shelby has desided she doesn't want to go to A & M, I told her if it was the money, we would just sell my house. But she doesn't want to do that. I told her today, we would sit down and deside what she wants to do and we will do it. Meagan made it out of high school. LOL She has a beautiful little Girl. You would just love her. Got my beach cabin for July 1 - 7, and on the 2th, we are going to let the balloons go again. Know that I still love you like it was three years back. My love has not change one bit. I will love you, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.......

Gosh, Lee, today has been so hard. Almost 3 years and today felt like July 2, my heart has been in terrible pain all day. When will this heart ache stop? Know that I love you with all my heart and soul, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING...Wait for me.....

Hey, Sweetie, I know I don't write very often now, but I look at this picture everyday; and laughter at this wife beater shirt you have on.....It's tax season, but it's almost over..thanks goodness. Know that I think of you everyday of my life...I miss you and love you with all my heart, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING......Wait for me......

Hey Sweet Baby,
Oh, you would be so proud of Shelby, Last Friday, she showed her blue pig, and came 1st then Grand Champion in Jasper, sold it for 2000.00 somewhere around there. Then Sunday, she showed her black pig, didn't do as good, but it is going for sale, and I think Her uncle's company is going to buy it. She is so excited. It's suppose to get warm so, and I'm going to start on your garden. I got a big Lion and 2 med pigs and one little pink pig. LOL I hope to get the rocks in soon. The sale at the fair is Thursday, I'm going with Shelby. I love you with all my heart and soul, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.......Wait for me, my love.

Well, I got the beach cabin for July1 thru July 7 and August 30 thru September 3. Don't you wish you were here, Well, I do. When to grief support last Tuesday, showed your picture, and said a few words about you. I'm getting better. Why did you have to go??? Don't worry when my time comes, I will hunt you down like a dog.LOL I know it won't be the same, I just hope its better. Work is so hard now, don't have time to smell the flowers. Know this I will always love you with all my soul and heart, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.....Wait for me....

Gosh, I miss that smile when I wake up in the mornings...I can't wait until we meet again. If not for anything but for you to hold me and telll me you love. Bad day, sorry.....Until my heart stops beating.......

I'm back, miss me???? Meagan had the baby, she weight 7 lb 5 oz and was 19 in. long. Meagan took her to the doctor today, and he said she was to fat, 11days old and she weights 8lb 5 oz. LOL. I'm going to grief support next Tuesday, I'm hoping I will be able to talk about you without crying. Tax season has started and I am so busy. You just can't believe how much. I'm starting to get a beach cabin at Crystal on the 4th of July. So I can be in your favorite place. I don't think I can ever get over doing that. I love and miss you, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.....Wait for me.....

Missed me??? I know you think I forgot about you but no way. I'm trying hard to move on. Not working very well. Meagan is going to have the baby on Feb 8, we tried to get the doctor to take it on the 12th, the day Timi died. Gosh, I miss you two, seeing you two again, would be the answer to my prayers....I'm still not happy with the way pm did you...But she has to live with that and answer for that.....I'm aready buying plants to put in your garden. Going to go play pool tonight. Sammy Harris is writing me now. He needs a good friend, I'm going to see to it he gets one...I saw the last of our show. When it was over I just burst in to tears. Next to us that was the greatest love story I have ever seem. Okay my heart is hurting, got to go, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, Wait for me, my love..........

Well, Christmas and New Year are over, I'm back at work... It seems life moves on just without me. Surely, this feeling will go away at some point in my life....Who would have thought you would make such a inpack on my life. I ask God to give me someone to love and someone to love me back, and he did, I just didn't think it would end so soon....Now, every night I ask him to heal my broken heart...And I guess someday he will.....KNOW THIS, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.....Wait for me....

Merry Christmas, my love, This is the third Christmas without you and it doesn't get any better. I'm in Spring this Christmas, had Christmas Sunday with my kids and brother, and his kids. We went and got Mother from the nursing home, for the day. KNOW THAT I LOVE AND MISS YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me......

What a beautiful smile...I have so much to do for Christmas hope to get a lot to do today. But I'm thinking about you... Until my heart stops beating.......

Good Morning, getting ready for Christmas. Cooking on the 23th for Christmas, that's when all my kids could get together. We are going to do it at my mom's house. You would have gotten along with my brothers at party time. I love you with all my heart and soul, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, AND THEN SOME.

I miss you....and will always miss you and love you, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.....Wait for me, my love.......

Good Morning, Sun shine, Got back from McAllen on the 27th with my mother in the hospital, with a broke hip, shoulder and brain bleed. She is in rehab now. Doctor changed my medicine, I feel like I could run through the glass door. Don't know why God Took you..........I love and miss you until my heart stops beating........

Good morning my love. I'm in McAllen for a week flew down on the 20th babck on the 27th.Tell it all to u when I get back....I think you are the best.....UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING......

Gosh, its cold......Got a client who is 3 years behind on there books and I have to get one year done by Monday. I could use the money...More than likely, I won't be able to go to grief support tonight. KNOW that I love you with all my heart. UNITL MY HEART STOPS BEATING....Wait for me......

Oh, Lee, I miss you so much...There is no way you could have know how much you were going to be missed. I'm flying out on the 20th for McAllen and back to Houston on the 27th...I'm going to Joy's and Rodney's for Thanksgiving...I'm taking Shelby to Italy on 6/10/13 for 11 days, and her mothers going to. Three generations....This should be great.....Shelby is crazy about the pig I got in Mexico to put your ashes in... It looks so cute...I still have not gotten my other tatoo. I hope I can get it next week.. I got to get back to work, KNOW, that I will always LOVE YOU. UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING......Wait for me, my love.....

I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART....UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING....

Its been a long time, since I talk to you. When to grief support tonight. I thought if I didn't write I would feel better.....But I don't...You know life moves on, but mine hasn't. Why?? Why can't I let go....I just can't wrap my mind around this pain....My broken heart.....Gosh, we had a lot of plans, now there is nothing..but tears and heart ache, its hard to breath..Some days I feel great, and its like I have run into a stone wall. I just don't know what GOD was thinking, to take you away...I love you with all my heart, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING....Wait for me.......

When to grief support last night. I just can't get thru it. If I had your smiling face just one more day. Say all the things I didn't say and want to now. My heart and soul was so loved by you. I love you Lee..Until my heart stops beating... I'll never find another like you....

Loving you, still sick.....Until my heart stops beating....

Been sick since I got back from Mexico. If not better by tomorrow I'm going to the doctor. I still have that yard to do. I got most of the stuff. Just need to do it. Know that I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING..I got to go lay down... Wait for me.....

Hey, there. I'm back you wouldn't believe it. It was beautiful, calm, and no stress. My phone didn't work either. LOL I got me a front porch light. And I got you a basket weave pig, I'm going to put your ashes in it. You would love it. Going to get the tatoo with the eye in it this week sometime. I read the books, "Heaven is for Real" AND "Ninety Minutes of Heaven" while I was there. They helped me a little. But nothing helps with the pain in my heart, and I guess nothing will...Just know that I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING....Wait for me..

Well, I'm here......It will take your breath away......I think I'm hooked. There is nothing like Zihuatanejo.....cliffs, beaches, sun, water and fun..........I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING......Wait for me.......

Well, I think things are over now, I'm happy, I don't think the others are. I got what I wanted, for everbody to know I know they took his ring and necklace and put it in her jewelry box and it didn't happen the way they said it did and they had to spend a little money, about 5,000. I think now I can start getting pass losting you. I will NEVER forget you, but just to be able to breathe free. I feel like I knew you all my life. I think I felt like you did when you told me you felt like you loved me all your life. Know I love you with all my heart and soul, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING...Wait for me....

Another 30 hours of sleep, You know if you sleep you have no pain. I guess my soul knows that so thats why I sleep so much. Going to try and do better my moving on. Know that I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.....Wait for me......

Well, still sleeping 40&50 hours at a time. The new medicine works but it keeps me up for 2 days at a time. I'm just not to happy. Can't wait until we meet again......We move our office this last week. Its smaller but its nicer. But when you are packing 6 offices and going to 3 offices there's a problem.LOL
It's 12:35am and I'm fixing to start working to get caught up on the last 2 days I slept.LOL I love you with all my heart and soul, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING......Wait for me, my love.........

Back from the beach, it was wonderful, we could have fished as long as we wanted. The cabin was nice, but they are all new. Getting things together to go to Mexico. That should be a nice trip. I love you and miss you, until my heart stops beating...Wait for me....

Don't know what happen. But I can't say bye without, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING....

Well, been busy, got my passport renewed yesterday, My friends, Joy & Rodney, are going to Zihuatanejo,Mexico on September 22 -27, and they bought me a ticket to go to. Good friends, huh? They have rent a 2 bedroom condo. Can't wait to go. Would you not have a fit...Lee, we could have had a ball. Oh, God this was not fair, to wait so long for someone and then he was gone. I will not be the only one that wonders WHY??

Been awhile, have been good. Find something out today. I love you and can't wait until its my time, so we can meet again. I love you with all my heart, until my heart stops beating. Wait for me.......

Well, Sweetheart, its the mid of the night and I'm up. Just want to say I LOVE YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING

Went to grief counciling Tuesday night. It was great...I thinking about going to stay with Monique after the 1st of Sept until I get all this medical stuff taken care of . Shelby has lost 10 lbs and then when to her daddy's I hope she didn't gain her weight back. She is coming home Sunday. I slept until 3:pm today that was 16 hours. So I'm going to try and stay up all night and work. That way I can get back on track. I love you with all my heart and soul, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING......

Well, we lost last night...by 2 points. My brother is back, thanks goodness, he can stay with mother at night, and all I have to do is cook....My Sugar bear is so cute, Shelby calls him "Leelo" LOL I call him "BooBoo"...Can't wait for the beach. I love and miss you, until my heart stops beating....Wait for me......

Hey, going to play pool tonight, we are in the play offs...I kept mother all weekend and we slept all weekend. LOL My heart is heavy today...Missing you. Got a beach cabin for labor day, God I wish you were here. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING....

Okay, where is that wonderful smile??? I never knew someone so happy. Your happiness turned my life up side down. I still don't know what God was thinking. I miss you like it was yesterday, the crazy person I am...Your birthday will be soon, and then your mother's, and our wedding day. thats going to be tough. But I'll think of you with all my heart..UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.......Wait for me my love......

Well, slept all day Friday, so I'm working tonight. Got me a beach cabin for week end before Labor day. I got a test to do on the 8th. Then I need to go to McAllen for some work, things just don't stop. I miss you like a fat kid does cake. LOL I hear things are rocking in Fannett, guess they should have thought about that before, they did what they did.....You think???? I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING........

I know now why you wanted to leave Beaumont,Fannett and move up by Dana, The Meadows don't know who they want to back up.....I'm just slowly moving along, praying to God everyday.Now that Karma's got Pat everybody's looking for someone to blame. LOL I got payroll reports to finish. Talk later, Please help me thru this, I love you with all my heart and soul, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING....

Missing you today, the sun is out and I can see you getting browner and browner. LOL I need to spend some time with you. My brother has just about got your table finish. Its going to be so cute with your ashes on it and your Waterford angel on it.......I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING........

Good Morning, Slept from Thursday until yesterday. Had another little thing, but I'm okay. I told you God didn't know what to do, you should be here taking care of me.....LOL Shelby and I just love our Sugar Glider, Leelo. But just like the other Leelo he's a lot of work...LOL Got lots of payroll reports to do, catch you later... REMEMBER; I LOVE YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.......

Gosh, I wish I could get caught up on the work..Did I tell you that Courtney has a 4.0 at Lamar and this December, she will be thru and she is #1 in her class....Shelby misses you so much everytime there is something on facebook about us she just wants to save me..LOL You know I never could understand why you want to move away from family, I think I know now.......LOL Your birthday is in about 3 weeks...our wedding day was the day after on your mothers birthday..I might have to stay in bed all day.....REMEMBER; I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING......Wait for me

Hey, sweet boy, life is moving on...I try to tell people if they had told the TRUE we wouldn't be here, they know who they are..Finally got my yard cut, you know only to my knees..LOL Shelby is gluing you vase for out side..So we can put some moss roses in. I'm still working in the yard...Hope I get everything done before Winter!!!!!LMFAO....I got Toni Jean her phone card last night. I hope God helps this angel...
Meagan's baby is due in February, 2013

Good morning, been on a 3 day sleep.....I hope this ends soon. Shelby is staying with me now, hoping to get me up and going, hasn't worked yet. I'm glad I'll be going to Broussard's tomorrow. Like I really need it. Got lots of work, talk later, REMEMBER; I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Hey there, sunshine, It has been raining for a week now, if you were here you would be off work and I would have taken off work. And we could be in the bed watching movies. I got so real good movies, you would love. Had a sleep all day yesterday. I'm going to the doctor this coming week... Hope I can get something to help me.... You know the hole in my heart gets bigger with every passing day.......KNOW; THAT I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING AND THEN SOME.........

Good morning, sweet baby, Back from Dallas from IRS audit. It looks like it has rain everyday this week. My heart is heavy today, missing you. Will it every get better?? Got lots of work to get done, KNOW::::that I love you with all my heart...UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING AND THEN SOME......Wait for me my love.......

Good afternoon, today started bad but if has gotten better. I'm so empty....I know a day will come when I won't feel this way, but that has not happen yet. I love you my love, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, AND THEN SOME.......Wait for me.........

Back from the beach, we let balloons go for you...I know how much you loved, some of your family when you ask me to move away from Tyler and Fannett with you....Nobody knows how much you loved me but me and God and you....Courtney said she can't believe that she almost carryed you baby for us..I'm not so sure, at least I would have a part of you...Tell Timi I miss her...And so does Shelby. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING....Wait for me.........

Well, its been two years and I don't think you realize how much you are missed. We think about you and miss you everyday. Nanny got her new house built and it is beautiful, you would be so proud-I know how much you loved her. Aunt Cora comes and spends the night with her alot and we sit around and talk about all the fun times we all had together when you were still with us. I know how much you loved Aunt Cora too, wish ya'll would have stayed together, then you might still be here with us today. I know the last months of your life you weren't happy (all the turmoil, etc.) you had going on. I know you are in a better place but this world just isn't the same without your beautiful smile. R.I.P. Leelo, we love you so much!

Well on my way to get groceries for the beach...Please stay in my heart for the next few days to help me thru. REMEMBER: I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.......

Boy, are you loved??? My heart is getting heavy the closer it gets to 7/2.
Two years is a long time for your heart to ache..Still don't know what God was thinking!! Just can't let you go yet.. I love you, Lee, with all my heart and soul, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.. Wait for me....

Good morning, Sunshine....I'm getting stuff ready for the beach..Finally, got Louise's audit done...Talk to Sammy Dale and Toni Jean, yesterday. All seems to be doing good...Missing you like a fat kid misses cake....WITH ALL MY LOVE, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING...Wait for me......

Bleeding Love

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

REMEMBERING you ! July 2! TWO yeas without you Bubba!

If I should stay...
I would only be in your way...
So Il go...
But I kno....Ill think of you EVERY step of the way!

AND I WLL ALWAYS LOVE YOU!!

YOU... MY DARLING YOU!!!

Bitter sweet memories...
that is ALL IM takin with me.
So good bye...
PLEASE dont cry!
WE both know im not what you need!
(You NEVER KNEW WHAT you needed MR FREE spirit!)
And I will ALWAYS LOVE you!
I will ALWAYS LOVE YOU!

I hope ever life will treat you kind ( CAUSE its HELL on earth the way u left me! SURVIVIN is a day to day path without you! I think of you EVERYDAY!)
and I hope you got all that you dreamed of... cause you left and I REALLY dont know if you were at your best place! BUT what was a happy platoe with you Bubba when your poor wreached life was so screwed up? YOU and I knew ALL the details and still you were my LOVE and my BEST friend! WE had THAT ubnderstanding Bubba! YOU know THAT!

BUT ABOVE EVERYTHING I VE ALLWAYS WISHED YOU LOVE!!
I WILL ALL WAYS AND FOREVER TILL MY POOR SICKENED HEART THAT HAS BEEN BLESSED WITH THE MEADOW CURSE.......
TO ALLWAYS HAVE YOU IN MY HEART AND FOREVER LOVE!

I WILL ALL WAYS LOVE YOU!!
REMEMBERING you SUGGIE .....CANT believe its been 2 years since you have left all of us who love you soo dearly! PLEASE watch over me and protect and guide me as I make it through this day to day life without my LOVE and MY BESTEST friend YOU! LEE......
ILL allways LOVE YOU!

Well, I'm sure you know, that Meagan is with child...I just told you a while back, that I was not happy with the way she was living her life. Well, I'm really not happy now... But I'll stand beside her..I don't know what I expected, she didn't have a chance from the beginning. I'm working on the yard, planted your moss roses.....Be going to the beach next Sunday, taking you with me..I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Hey, smiley, you and me will be the only ones smiling. LOL You know God don't like ugly...Didn't happen that way..I can just see you with that ring on your finger all swollen up around it....Pass the lotion, somebody!!! Got to get to work, LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING....Wait for me......

Good morning, Sunshine, I'm back at work, just loving your smile. I'm going to take care of you, I told you I would and I will..My brother is working on you little table I got from Toni Jean, so I can take you off the fireplace and put you in the bedroom..I've let my life go after you died but I'm slowly trying to get it back...I'm just sorry I didn't marry you when you first ask,,,,can't do anything about that now....Got to get to work, LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING....Wait for me....

Well, I go to court tomorrow....yoo hoo!!!! I have been so busy getting all my stuff done. Loving my new medicine....Played pool last night,,,Lost... Getting stuff ready for the beach..I'm taking you too...Put the top down, you in the seat next to me....And away we go......I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING......Wait for me.......

Well, I wrote you a long note yesterday, but it didn't show up...Maybe I can remember what I said...I talk to the man, things are not going to come off like I wanted them to, but as long as someone gets it I don't care. Just as long as the person that gave you the lotion to get the ring off......Doesn't get to keep it.....The medicine is doing good. Can't wait to go to the beach, I guess, I'm taking Meagan with me...She is not leading the life I want for her, but I guess as long as she is happy.. Got to go to work, REMEMBER: I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.....Wait for me my love.....

Good morning Sunshine, The new Medicine is WONDERFUL...I just might make it. I love and miss you something awful..I can't wait until we meet again, just to have you hold me one more time.I love you, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me, my love.....

Well......Things aren't good.. Went to bed Saturday at 9:00pm got up Monday at 2:30pm....Can't get the new medicine....has to be pre approved or something like that...I might just have to pay for it..I'm coming up on 2 years you have been gone...I just want to rent a billboard and tell the world how much you are missed and loved.....UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.....Wait for me.....

Good morning Sunshine, hopely I'm coming out of my hole. I got some new medicine hope it works....LOL I'm just about got all my stuff moved to Hills leaving Bruce's. I called the man today waiting on him to call me back.....Went to the beach yesterday and looked at the cabin I got rented for the 4th going to let some balloons go again this year...Gosh, I miss you. You can't amagine how my life has changed since I lost you...I was looking at the rest of my life with you..Didn't happen thought.....My brother is working on the little chest that belong to you, he's refinishing it. I'm going to put your ash on it with you angel pig....Getting the new tattoo in the next couple of weeks.....LOVING YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING........Wait for me, my love.....

Well, life has been awful the last couple of weeks....But I trying hard...I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.....

God, what were you thinking??? Lee, these last three days have been the worst days since you died....I went to Tyler I cried all the way up there, while I was there, and all the way back.....Everytime I go to Tyler it gets harder and harder...I didn't get to see Sammy and Tammy, maybe next time...I'm not sure Sammy has forgiven me about Timi Lynn's funeral, I hope so I loved his Brother and Sister like there was no tomorrow and there wasn't...A snake belly would be looking up, Depression is awful..Know that I loved you like you will never know.....UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING....Wait for me, Lee.....

Well, it looks like I don't have time to write everyday like I would like too. Taken care of mother is a job in its self. I wish you were here you could help me with her. That beautiful smile you got would keep her smiling too. I love you, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.....Wait for me.......

At work, took the morning off, took Mother to get her hair done and while I was there, I had 3 in. cut off my. I should finish up with Hill's, Yea!!!! Think I'm going to Tyler this coming weekend and then next weekend I'm going to McAllen for a week....I just can't seem to stay home anymore since you're not there. Keep smiling because I can feel it. With all my love, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING........

Yea, I got the beach cabin for 7/1 thru 7/5...Can't wait...Might cry the first 2 days, thinking of you, but maybe I can cry myself dry and fish the next 3 days....LOL Still working on Hills...Be glad when this is over. Got to go KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING........

Well, I slept all day, until 4:00pm, got to work at 5:00pm and it is 10:35pm now. Got lots to do before in the morning...But I have time to take care of business for you....In fact, I think I have done a good job, just like I told you I would....Courtney and Mike went fishing yesterday, Courtney caught a shark.....
I wanted to go but I got this audit to do, if I don't get it done I might have to leave town....Its for my wonderful friend..LOL
I love you with all my heart and soul, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING......Wait for me.....

Still working, I'll be glad when Monday gets here, I told the cpa I'ld have this stuff in his office Monday....I think I'll take the hold week off...go see Dana, and Sammy & Tammy, and Toni Jean.....I'm missing you......UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING...Wait for me....

Good morning, my love...Well phones are ringing......LOL You are a beautiful baby from the outside in....and I love you....Loving you was wonderful, UNITL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.......

Hey big boy, I was hoping to take a trip with Dana, but I'm still behind in my work....I also want to go to Tyler and see about Toni Jean and Sammy & Tammy.....It's late I just wanted to take a minute to talk to you...I'm trying to rent a cabin at the beach for July 1-4.... So I can feel closer to you....I love you with all my heart and soul, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING......Wait for me.......

Hey, Sweet Baby, I'm still working my a** off. I can't wait to be caught up. KNOW: THAT I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.....Wait for me........

Good morning Sunshine, When I open this page and see that beauitful smile, I just go to my knees.You have been gone almost two years, and I think it was yesterday....I BELIEVE, how about 15 minutes????Until my heart stops beating......Wait for me, my love.....

Good morning Sunshine, When I open this page and see that beauitful smile, I just go to my knees.You have been gone almost two years, and I think it was yesterday....I BELIEVE, how about 15 minutes????Until my heart stops beating......Wait for me, my love.....

Well, I slept for 31hours again..You would think I have gotten enough sleep by now. I think I'm not going to Tyler until Saturday, take everybody out to eat and play bingo sunday and then come home.....House is in a mess need to get on it. Going somewhere with Dana on May 4 & 5....Should be fun....Still have a few returns to do, REMEMBER AND KNOW that I will always love you, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.......

10 days, I think thats the longest I have gone without talking to you in two years..And I have missed you everyday.. I'm trying to get my house in order and my yard done, the new flower pots with your flowers in it. I'm going to Tyler I think Wednesday...Need to check on Toni Jean, Tammy & Sammy, and Tomi Jean... We should have some great things going for them...I'm not intitle to anything but I plan on see to it they get all they can and then some. They want that neckles and ring, they can have them, I plan on getting enough money to pay for 3 sets of them.......LMFAO.....You were to good to some....I think I'm going to rent a cabin at the beach for 4th of july and dream of you. I'm going to fish and drink beer like you were there.......I wish there was a way someone could tell me WHY? What was God thinking??? I want just 15 minutes with you so I could tell you how much you mean to me...How you got it all and took it with you....How I will never LOVE another man the way I LOVED you....You were my everything and always will be........UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.............

Well, I haven't forgot about you, just working 16 hours a day, will be glad when Tuesday, 17 comes..Talked about an hour today to Sammy and Tomi Jean, going to see them and Toni Jean next week....Well, things are going good, talk to my lawyer yesterday, things should start flying soon. I told you I would take care of it and I will. No matter what it takes or how long it takes... Then maybe I will be able to move on a little, it will never be the same without you...Crying for 2 years everyday, is not something I want to do the next 2.... I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING......Wait for me, my love.....

I thought of you today, but that is nothing new. I thought about you yesterday, and days before that too. I think of you in silence. I often speak your name. All I have are memories and a picture in a frame. Your memory is a keepsake, from which I' ll never part. God has you in his arms. I have you in my heart......UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING......Wait for me.......

Well, I just thought I was tired Tuesday, I have worked 35 hours in 3 days, plus cook for my mother everynight....You need to come back, you were a wonderful cook you could take care of mother.....My baby girls is sick....I could use your sweet smile, now.....But I know God wouldn't take her, I couldn't stand that, and he knows it. So, I'm sure he will help her get well....Although, Its 11:oopm I need to get back to work, REMEMBER; I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING......Wait for me........

Well, I'm home thank goodness....Tired going to bed...LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING....

Leaving McAllen tomorrow aout 5:00pm. Need to get back to work. Lee I need you now.......I got some bad new today.. I need you more than I ever have help me please....I OVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

I love you my love. Back form the reunion.... Need to be back at work... Got lots to do. Until my heart stops beating.....LOVE YOU.....

I love you my love. Back form the reunion.... Need to be back at work... Got lots to do. Until my heart stops beating.....LOVE YOU.....

I'm in Austin now....We are at rachel and mike's house. Missing you!!! Going to Rodney's class reunit...Going back to McAllen sunday....Love you!!!!!! until my heart stops beating.........

Ficing to go to Austin for the weekend. Maybe I'll call your Uncle.. I love you with all my heart and soul, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING...Wait for me...... What was God thiinking????? /what am I going to do with out you......

Hey, I'm in McAllen, the plane ride was a joke... I needed boots and a saddle....I'm resting today start working tomorrow. Know that I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING....

I guess you think I forgot about you.....NO WAY!!!!! Just so busy, I didn't know It had been this long though. I'm flying out of houston on Tues to go to McAllen to do a job, be back next Tues. 3/27... I haven't got pack yet, play pool tonight.. I dont know when I'll bet pack, got to cook for mom tonight. HUH.... REMEMBER AND KNOW THIS: I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.......Wait for me

When I typed in your name, your picture pop-up and that smile blow me away....I'm working tonight, almost thru. Just a quick not to let you know you are my main man for ever......I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING AND THEN SOME. Wait for me.....

Taking a break from work thought I write you a little note....Thursday, me and shelby are going to Galveston, with Broussard's....I love you with all my heart and soul...Until my heart stops beating and then some....Wait for me...

Good morning, Write later, know that I love you with all my heart....UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.....Wait for me...

To tired to write got to cook for Mother and come back and work......REMEMBER I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING......Wait for me.....

Busy day.....Missing you something awful...My friend Joy is having a bad time with life, so I'm going down to spend some time with her. I fly out of here on the 20th and back on the 27th. I wish you were here to help me. I don't think you had any ideal how much I was going to miss you...I don't think anybody knew how close we were... In fact, until I lost you I didn't know.......I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING AND MAYBE LONGER. Wait for me

Another heart broken day......I WILL LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING AND MAYBE LONGER....Wait for me

Its a beautiful day, know that I love you and miss you with all my heart and soul, until my heart stops beating and then some. Got to much work to do. Wait for me, my love.....

Well, today is awful, God I miss you just can't stand it. God, Why???? I must have done something awful for you to give me this much pain and heart ache...I love you, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING AND THEN SOME.....Wait for me...

I love you my sweet. Tired going to bed. Write tomorrow..UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING....

Good morning, my love..I had to work last night to 8:00pm, couldn't wake up this morning. I miss you......If I could see that beautiful smile one more time.....My heart aches this morning...They say I'm better and I guess I am...But look its going to have to get a whole lot better than this!!!LOL. Shelby and I are going to Galveston with Broussard's in March...I don't know what I would do without Kim. She keeps my heart pumping.. Got to go to work, REMEMBER; I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTI L MY HEART STOPS BEATING AND THEN SOME. Wait for me.....

Miss you like a fat kid misses cake.....Loving you with all my heart and soul, until my heart stops beating and then some.....Wait for me....

Hello, Sunshine, God I love you.....That smiling face, is hard to beat. Its raining and I'm sad. I missed you this morning and every morning. You think God is going to let me hurt like this forever???Busy Busy Busy, I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING..........

Just wanted to tell you I love you with all my heart...I talked to Sammy today..He is such a sweet person just like you....I need to call Toni Jean.....You think you and Timi could help me out a little....LOL Got to go playing pool tonight.....UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.....

Hey, Sweet Baby, I had those 2 quarters you gave me gold plated. I'm not sure what I'm going to do with them. Work is HELL, wish you were here so I could feel better...You made my life wonderfull.....Got to get to work. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING......Wait for me.....

I looked at your smiling face and the love just overflows me....What was God thinking????I need to know that you are there, my love..How about a big butterfly in the face??? Work is wild....Do have any ideal what I would give for one more day???? My soul is lost, I will love you , until my heart stops beating and then some. Wait for me.......

My heart aches for you, my love.....19 months and I just can't seem to get pass it...You have got to help me......I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING AND MAYBE MORE......Wait for me.......

Well, done everything at mothers, fixing to work on tax returns...Going to a friends Birthday Party, a fish fry, tomorrow, you would have loved it........Got to go REMEMBER: I WILL LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.......

Hey there, been sick slept for 31 hours you would think I was rested wouldn't you but I'm not. I am so for behind .....know that I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTI L MY HEART STOPS BEATING, AND THEN MAYBE LONGER......Wait for me....

Going to the doctor today. Wish you were here to take me...Gosh, wish you were here period.......I didn't go to support last night, it is so hard to go during tax season. but I need to find the time, I need it...I'm hurting today, Gosh, I wish I knew what God was thinking...Not that I think I would feel any different. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING AND THEN MAYBE LONGER............

HAPPY HAPPY VALENTINE MY LOVE......I missed you this morning, well to tell the true I miss you every morning...Play pool until 12:30am last night, loss both of my games...But I think thats what I 'm suppose to do. LOL Since you left I have started playing pool and painting pictures..I'm getting the tatoo with outline of a butterfly with a eye in it with a tear......I'm so afraid Im going to forget you it I could I would have your name tatoo on my forehead. LOL Tell Timi I love her and miss her too. She wanted her mother and brother and now shes got them. REMEMBER.....I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING....Wait for me....

Good morning, my love. My time is going to get tight....I will be working about 80 hours a week, so if I skip some days just REMEMBER...YOU ARE MY SOUL MATE AND WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART.....I'm looking for things to start popping soon....LOL I told you I'ld take care of it and I did.....God I can't get over how ever time I see Sammy..he gets to looking like you more and more....Tammy and him are a cute couple..You might want to tell God to take care of them. Got to go, I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING....Wait for me..

Well, just got to work, to tired to get out of the bed......I just wanted you to know that I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING....Wait for me

Love that smile. Just wanted you to know I was thinking about you. LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me.....Got lots of work...

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Love that smile. Working hard, lots to do, just want you to know I was thinking about you.

You know I never get tired of writing you, I open up your guestbook and see that wonderful smile makes my heart feel good. Your brother is going to go get your bed and medicine cabinet for me....Then I'll go to Tyler and pick it up.... I need a bed for one of my bedrooms. You know Tammy and Sammy were so sweet to me when I when to Tyler last weekend before last....I when to grief support last night, Kim says I'm doing better, but I feel like you just died yesterday and its been 18 months. Got to get to work, know that I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING....Wait for me, my love.....

Hey, Sweetie, slept until noon today. I've been doing alot of that lately. I just can't wait wish I could see their faces....Now that I laid in bed most of the day I need to get to work..Talk to "Toni Jean, she's got to go pay some tickets or do time....She's crying dont want to do time.....Maybe we can get the tickets paid......I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.....Wait for me, until we meet again......

Well, Sweet baby, Saturday & Sunday wasn't much better,but a little. I'll take anything. When will the pain in my chest go away, when I get satisfaction about your death????? I think Sammy finally forgave me about Timi's funeral or at least I hope so. Gosh, Lee, He looks so much like you!!!!Got to get to work, know that I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING!!!!! Wait for me, baby.......

Gosh, Lee, my heart hurts so bad today, Please do something...I need to know you are here....What was God thiniking????? I know you are in a better place, just let me feel you smile.....UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Missing you this morning, no one to drink coffee with and no one's phone ringing. No one to say turn the TV on lets see what the weather is.19 months ago my life stopped....I love you Lee Meadows, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me......

Good morning, my love...I'm so tired I don't know what to do. To old for all this work..Talk to Sammy yesterday, everthing is going good. YEA!!!!! I just want people to know that they can't do this to you..I waited so long for you and in a minute you were gone....gone forever. My heart will hurt forever..I long for your smile, your little fat hands..God, I love you so much will this ever get better..Got to go...I WILL LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING..Wait to me....

I DID IT!!!!!!I told you I would take care of it......I DID....I have been so busy with payroll reports, working late everynight... haven't gotten a change to write you. But you know that I love you with all my heart, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.....I can't wait until I can tell you more.....Wait for me. You are the love of my life and I can't wait until we meet again.......

Good morning sunshine...I'm going to Tyler this weekend to see your sister. And maybe Sammy....Busy Busy, but I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

I was reading my facebook and a friend posted this & I though Boy, is this my Lee................

Life's journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a well
preserved body,
But rather toskid in sideways,
Total worn out,
Shouting " Holy Shit, What a Ride!!!"

Well, baby is this you. you bet your sweet a** it is. Thinking of you, missing you, but its the good times, Gosh, Loving you was so much fun. AND I'LL LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING

I'm listening to Etta James, she passed today, but I'm sure you already know. Couldn't get up this morning, didn't go to work until 2:00pm. I think i'm going to work full time for Hill. Bruce just can't get it together. I love my job, but you know. I went to Dr yesterday, he want to know if I was dating......Are this people kidding me.....I want nobody but YOU!!! I can wait until we meet again...I waited 65 years for you...another 10 years won't be nothing for a stepper like me...I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNITL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.....Wait for me.....

Miss you today. Got lots to do today, I love you with all my heart and soul, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING......

Today is Shelby's birthday, we are going to go look at cars...She is still having a hard time with your death. I guess she never seem anybody love like we did. God I hope she finds our kind of love....Got to get to work, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING........

Gosh, I need a hug today.....Going to grief support tonight. If I had you back, I promise I wouldn't let you go.......Bad day talk later..My heart aches today....I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING....Wait for me..........

Ugh for today.....But know that I love you with all my heart and soul.. Doing payroll reports and end of year..Talk later...
I love you until my heart stops beating....Wait for me

Talk to Toni Jean tonight going to Tyler next weekend...LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING

Another nice day, Going to work at Nacol' this afternoon, should I tell Will hello for you??? LOL My life is upside down starting Monday I'm going to try to get it together, start working out again and tanning and going places. I'm not sure where but somewhere. I do miss you so......My little piggy.....You will be in my heart forever. I will love you until my heart stops beating. Wait for me.....

Good morning, the suns out and its beautiful, now it only you were here. Didn't go to grief support last night because the first night is hard. After looking at Monique's christmas pictures I wish now I had gone. I guess loving you cost me a daughter. I stayed as long as I could 35 years. I still care for him just not in love....Maybe in time she will get over it or maybe not....But loving you was the greatest thing in my life except for my kids. " I would rather have a short life of love with you than a life time of normal with someone else. I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.....Wait for me....

Good Morning my love. Its raining, raining wish I was in bed. Going to get my eye fix today at 10:00am. I play pool tonight..going to see it Courtney will come get me because it is suspose to rain all day. I don't know when you blow the back off if it cause a leak or what, but it leaks nows..Water doesn't get inside but it gets in beween the walls. I love you with all my heart and soul......UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me.....

Good Morning my love, I got a writing from Steve, and he must be in my head and heart. Because this is just how I feel:

"It’s like screaming and no one can hear.....
You always feel ashamed...
That some one could be that important...
That without them...
You feel like nothing'''
NO ONE WILL UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH IT HURTS!!!
If you’re hopeless...
But nothing can save you...
Then when it’s over...
And it’s gone...
U wish you could have ALL the bad stuff back.....
So you can have ALL the good!"

Gosh, What you think??? I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.
Wait for me.....

Talked to your friend Steve for awhile at 4:00am this morning The end of the year is here and business is picking up. I think Steve and me are going to do a little talking about you .... Its our time now....I love and miss you so very much, until my heart stops beating.

Well, its the first day of the year. I'm looking forward to the year......I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.....

Missing you something awful. I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me. Just can't talk to day, but I love you so much.

I love you my love......I think I might be better off, if I don't try to forget who you were and what you were...You will always be my heart beat...God!! Why is this so hard, why would God bring you into my life then take you away with no good byes...No Nothing......We had so many plans......Got to get to work before I start to cry. KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING..Wait for me....

Good morning Sunshine, Hopefully today will be better than yesterday. I'm working on yearends for a few clients. Going to be busy for the next month. I'm still trying to get that movie. Still trying to get that l*****...Know that I love you until my heart stops beating....Talk tomorrow...Wait for me...

Hey, things are better today...Go to the Races with Diane tonight. Worked alittle while today... Not much... Got to go KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING......Wait for me.....

Well, Christmas Eve is over, Christmas Day is over, and in a few hours my birthday will be over. This has been the hardness week I have even been thru short of your death. I miss you so much, sometimes I wonder why! If I get thru this I should be in good shape until Jan. 9, when you turned my heart upside down. I keep asking what was God thinking, but I get no answer. Know that I will always LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me........

Good morning, Sunshine. I'll know something today about you. I love you and can't let it go unfinish. I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, if this doesn't go threw I don't know what I'll do. Just wait for me.

Well, I'm back, The seminar was good. Did some shopping while I was in Houston. The closer it gets to Christmas the more I miss you. I'm going to see Toni Jean around New Years. I got a lots to do before Christmas so if all you get is a I LOVE YOU. That why I'm Busy. YOU ARE MY SOUL MATE, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL. Wait for me.....

What a ugly day, I would like to see some sun.....Going to an IRS seminar leaving this evening coming back Friday night. Might not get to write. But know that you are my SOUL MATE...you make the world worth living....I love you, Lee with all my heart and soul, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING...Wait for me.....

Good morning, my love. Christmas is coming up fast. I miss you so much. I hope Christmas is good, so far its worse than last year, suppose to get better, but its not.This hole in my chest is unreal...... I HOPE I get some good new on the 21st .....I love you. You made my heart feel like 14kt gold, I felt so much love from you.....Wait for me my love......UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING........

Spend the weekend taking care of Mother, When to the Christmas Paarty Broussard's had. Tom played and sang He was wonderful....................But as usually I couldn't hold it together......God give me a break..... I WILL LOVE YOU LEE, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.....Wait for me......

Missing you.......There gots to be a way out of this. That song Vic Gill sings,"getting over you is going to take dying". Well I now know where I stand. I tried not writing every day and things got worse. So, I'm back to writing everyday. You were should a wonderful person...loving...giving...taking care of....when you died you sucked the life out of me...what I would give for one more day...God I hope you knew how much I loved you. You put a smile on my face that I didn't think was possible. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me...

Tuesday was sooooooooo hard. My sweet Shelby let it all go at support.....Bless her heart I couldn/t help her. I can't help my self. This is suppose to be getting better, its getting worse. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING............Wait for me..........

Good Morning my love, got sick, bad tooth, Tuesday night, face got big, and hurt, Been on Amoxicillin and Hydrocodone for 5 days, think I might make it now. Need to get cut out, thats wonderful here at Christmas. I miss you. There is so much going on, we could be doing. Got to get to work .....LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me.........

Good morning my love, Christmas is coming up fast, I just want it to be over, missing you to much during the holidays. Oh my God will I ever get pass this???? I'm sure people who see that I'm still writing you think I'm nuts.....But my heart hurts so much, I can hardy believe in should a short time you took over my heart and soul. Think you can come back as someone else????? What was God thinking.....I WILL LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING..........

Miss me, Gosh I've been so busy. Cooked until 2:30 am Thursday, had dinner with my family and Ms Hill. Started shopping at 9:30pm Thurs until 7:30 am Friday, slept until 12:00pm Fri when to Evadale to bring Shelby's purse to her, came home got dress and started shopping again until 8:00 pm Tired going to bed;.... Know that I love you and miss you....UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Good Morning, your aunt Pat thinks I'm crazy, just wait.......She just thinks she knows crazy..... Can't wait to get the movie, think I'll ask Will to watch it with me....Going to Broussard's tonight, haven't been in a couple weeks, but it seems every Tuesday it rains and my top leaks, and I can't find where......Going to Monique Thursday early to help her cook, I wish you were here my love...I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN...Wait for me........

Today is Friday, next week is Thanksgiving, God I wish you were here. Your movie came out last night at 12:00 midnight. I'm just lost with out you. Until my heart stops beating. I love you

Leelo died last night. Gosh, I miss you, what am I going to do??I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, Wait for me.....I just want one more day with you.....

Lost love is still love. It takes a different form, that's all.
You can't see their smile or bring them food
or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor.
But when those senses weaken another heightens. Memory.
Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it.
You dance with it.
I miss you so much my love......UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.......

Hey, Missing you today, Kept Courtney's kids this weekend. Was real busy, things need to slow down. Our movie is coming out this Friday, can't wait...... Got Hills payroll today got to go, KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me.

Sick yesterday, feel so much better today. I'm getting caught up at work finally. My friend Diane's cuz died yesterday. If I go to one more funeral service at Broussard's in Nederland........Too much. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me........

Know that I love you today and Thinking of you, my love. I WILL LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. WAIT FOR ME!!!!!!

I feel you in my soul this morning....like butterflies flying. I went to Jennifer yesterday, she says find someone, we know thats not going to happen, I don't have that long left, to get over you and find someone. Just when I think I'm getting better the bottom falls out. I guess I can't get over you because I'm not willing to give up that wonderful feeling you left me with. That wonderful feeling the whole world wants and can't get. You see I got that feeling from you I just wanted more.....I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.....Wait for me.....

I LOVE YOU, MY FRIEND, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Bad weekend, talk later is there every going to be a good weekend. Wait for me.

Know this, you are my heart and soul, I WILL LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING......

Good Morning, my love.. I'm back going to grief support. Just couldn't make it. I have had a awful time for the last 4 days. I know I keep saying the same old stuff, but what was God thinking???? You were my heart and soul. We had something alot of people never have. In fact, after 46years of marriage to three men, I got more from you in six months than I ever got from them. And to think that I knew you for about 20 yrs and let you get away. Sometimes I think maybe I'm not suppose to get over you. Maybe God gave me you to carry me to my death. Don't know but I will find out. I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me my love..............

Know that I love you with all my heart. UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING......

I love you my love. Just can't get over not being able to get over you. I wonder sometimes that may be I'm not willing to get over you. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Good Morning, my love, working on payroll reports, missing you alot this week. I guess its going to take dying to get over you. I know one thing for sure, you will be going NO WHERE without me after we meet again. I'm talking about stuck like glue.LOL Just to talk to you, about sh*t, go down to the beach and lay out..I'll never stop loving you. UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. You think you could give me a little sign??? I do love you so.......

For some reason, I'm having a hard time and I don't know why.. Could be that I' m sick and getting shots every morning. Hopely, tomorrow is the last of the shots. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me......Please......

You told me one time, we were perfect for each other, I think you were right....Who but us, God I LOVE YOU......Don't leave me Lee, I can't live without you, You are what makes me ....Me. When we meet again, you will not get out of my sight. REMEMBER I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me my Love.

Well, I tried not writting to see if things got better, they didn't My heart aches all the time, Gods got to do something. I hope everyday will be better but its not, what you think God is thinking. Why did God bring you into my life???? The time we had together some people never have, but then they don't know this pain....I LOVE YOU AND WOULD NEVER GIVE UP ANY TIME WE HAD TO GETHER, REMEMBER THIS I WILL LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, BY LOVE.......

Well haven't written in a week, been busy and sick, been sick since last Thursday. I've missed you and don't know what to do. Things just can't seen to get better.. BUT KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me, my sweet.......

Missing you!!!! Loving you like a fat kid loves cake!!!!!!!!
Can't wait until I see you again. I got so much to tell you.....
I wonder what God is thinking, you know that hole in my heart is suppose to be getting smaller not larger....I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, Wait for me, my love!!!!

Back from Tyler and had fun. Got some things done.. Got court in the morning with Mother. Got "Contest of appointment of guardian to type for my brothers. I'll let you know when the thing I told you I would take care of happens.......REMEMBER THAT I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me......

TGIF, I hope I get to go to Tyler this weekend. I just about give up on getting caught up. LOL My heart aches for you today. You made my life worth getting up in the mornings, Too sad today, talk later. BUT REMEMBER, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Talk to Toni Jean, going to Tyler to see her this weekend, I have so much work to do, the 15th is coming up for extensions and payroll reports on the 31th. Then there is mothers and all the legal stuff. BUT KNOW THIS, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. Wait for me

Good morning lover boy, today is busy, don't have time to talk today either. JUST KNOW: I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, You know those other people don't have a clue to what we had. LMBFAO........Wait for me....

Good morning, Sweet baby, got a lot to do today, talk later, just remember I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.....

Looked in on you Saturday, but didn't feel like writing. Slept today until 5:00pm, just a little down, just got something to eat fixing to go to mother's and see about her. KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. Wait for me.......

Had a ball on Shelby's and mine trip with Brousssard's. Shelby just loved it and I did too. Kim is an angel, and so much fun. Can't wait for the spring trip and christmas party. I love these trips because you don't cross my mind while we are on them. But of course, we have to come back home, and the miss you starts all over again. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, Wait for me my love..

Hey what you doing???? Wish I was there with you...... Today is not as good as yesterday, but not bad. Getting ready for Shelby and mine trip. I more than likely wont write tomorrow, but know that you are in my heart. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTI L MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. Wait for me...

Good Morning, I had a big laugh about you this morning, about your 2 pair of shorts, Gosh I LOVE YOU, BOY!!! Slept in the bed Saturday, too, getting better, I guess. Stayed with Mother last night. Shelby and I are going on the Broussard's trip Wednesday, I'm going to see if she remembers the two pairs of shorts. I sware, God made a mistake by taking you from me, you belong to me, you are what makes my heart beat. I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, Wait for me.....

Well, after one year and thee months, I slept in our bed with your sister last night. I guess I'm getting a little better. I don't want to blow anybody away, but I think its going to take dying to get over you. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. Wait for me......

Loving you, today......Got any ideas how I could get over you??? I've been trying to get over you and nothing is happening. I guess I don't have enough time to get over you. I'll just keep loving you, until we meet again. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me........

Know that I will always LOVE you. Got lots to do today, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me

Hey, Missing you.....When to Pool last night. Got Ms Hill's contract done, thank goodness. I might can see the light at the end. I'm just so tired. God, I wish you were here, to hold me and tell me everything is going to be okay. I just can't let go. What was God thinking???? I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me.

Good morning, sweet baby, Missing you, I might get caught up soon. Took Shelby to get some more clothes yesterday, going to play pool tonight. Still don't have a window in my car and it's raining. Thank God for bad luck or I wouldn't have any luck at all. Got to get to work, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, Wait for me........

Hey Sweet Heart, busy busy, I miss you will try to write more as soon as I get caught up. I do so miss you and love you until we meet again, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me. Today don't look good for me!!!!! I DO LOVE YOU SO...........

I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL. UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me got to go

Just mail Shelby-linn and My reservation to NASA and Aquarium in Kemah. Shelby is thrilled. I can't wait either. Get some of Mothers things done. Still real business. REMEMBER THIS:::::::I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me!!!!!!!

Good morning my love, I'm in trouble, if I don't get caught up. Did nothing this weekend, Missed with mother saturday then when to the benfit saturday night. Slept until Sunday at 7:00pm up until 6:00am must have days and nights mixed up. Remember this: I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTI MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Well I was writing you and the electricity when down. I don't know if you will get that part of this message. Don't have time to write over so This will be all you get. KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.Wait for me

I told you I wouldn't get to write much Got to get caught up. Know that I love you with all my Heart and Soul UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me my love

Won district last night at pool. Might get to go to Vegas again for Nationals.WooHoo!!! Well, I have played hard the whole month of August trying to run away from the pain of lossing you, well, I'm a month behind on all my accounts, and I still miss you like a mother. I need to start my life over I just dont know how. I need to get my work caught up, so If I miss a day or two writing know that I'm busy, But I STILL LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me.

I love you baby. Wish you were here. Ms. Hill has a beautiful place at Sam Rayburn...14 ac. on the lake. Five bedroom up and down. You would have gone crazy. WHY, WHY, WHY.
"You never know how strong you are until life gives you no choice and you are forced to be your own hero." I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Going to the Lake with Ms Hill taking mother, we are going to leave tonight. She has a nice place up there. You would love it and all the fishing you could do. You would go crazy. I miss you so much, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me.
I will need you when I get there.

Gosh, I'm loving you like a fat kid loves cake. Took Shelby to get school clothes last night, got some cool things for her. Got a few cute ones for me. We got a storm moving in this weekend. Its a holiday, but I think I'm going to stay home with my mother. I would love to go to Crystal Beach and fishing with you. Think you can go????? When you coming back????? I need you. I meet this guy at pool and he has them short fat hands you have, short like you too. Is it you???LOL Need to get some work done. I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me.........

Good morning sweet baby, I want to know why I'm not getting any better. I just don't seem to let go. My heart aches most of the time, I'm in the dumps, can't seem to get up and going. I know you get tired of me wining all the time, I just can't help it. Loving you was so easy, I never had anybody that loved me like you did, or they didn't know how to show it like you. I want you back, you think you can come back as some one else????? LOL I just want you to hold me one more time while I sleep. I WILL LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me........

Today is Meagan's Birthday, spend most of the day with her. I just want to take her and take care of her. How do people get so far down. To day has been bad. I LOVE AND MISS YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me.......

Hi, I miss talking to you everyday, Vegas was good, Courtney played great, I left before she did so I don't know how much she won. I know they were in the money just where I'm not sure. But of course, as soon as I hit the City Limits of Beaumont everything came down around my feet. You know it's just so hard to fill this big old hole in my heart. You know loving you was great, the best, losing you was the worst thing I ever had to do. But I'm so happy you picked me what we had there are a lot of people who never have that kind of love. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me!!!

Imma hurtin Leee! Heres sumthin for us.. I'm sorry I lost you but WE only KNOW how to relate!
Life ain't always beautiful!
Sometime it's just plain hard!
Life can knock you down! It can break your heart like WE KNOW!
Life aint always beautiful ... you think your on your way and it's just a dead end road at the end of the day!
But the struggles make you stronger and the changes make you wiser and happiness has it's own way of taking it's sweet time to make you stronger!
NO life AINT always beautiful...
Tears will fall and fall!
But life with you was a beautiful ride!
Life aint allways beautiful
Allmost EVERY minute of the day I miss your smile!
I get tired of walking all these lonely miles without you!
I just wish for just one minute we could back up the time and be happy once again! Before anything else you tried to create as a life!
I can try to dream but life don't work that way... but the struggles make me stronger and the struggles make me wiser!
Happiness has it's own sweet time of takin it's place...but know that you are gone where is that place?
NO life aint always beautiful but I guess I will be fine! We will SEE! Will you see that I am?
I will allways love you LEE! IMMA so sorry you let go as you wanted us to start again! MAYBE I could of saved you as I did in the past! I'm so sorry things had to end this way!!

Miss me??? I'm in Vegas since the 20th until the 27th. When to Fremont St. and rode the zipline. Having a good time. Courtney got in the money but is out now. It's hard to get to write and will write again Saturday. I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING

Wednesday was awful. I missed you so much I didn't think I was going to make it. I'm not sure why I'm still here, but I'm sure Gods got a plan, just wish I knew what it was. I can't wait until we meet again, I'm never going to let go of you. I'm going to hold on with all my might.I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me my love.

Oh yea, I got your yellow roses yesterday. You are my life and soul.

Well today is Wednesday, Meagan, my mother and me ran the roads all day yesterday. Meagan and me are going to McAllen tomorrow to get my car. Hopefully it is ready. I will call my friend later today to make sure it is. I MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. Wait for me......

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MY LOVE!!!! Today was hard, I'm missing you everyday. Can't wait until we meet again. You are my soul mate,Until my heart stops beating.

SOME ONE LIKE YOU- Happy birthday! Lee!!

I heard that you settled down..
that you found a girl and your married now!
I heard that your supposed dreams came true again.
Guess she gave you things I didnt give you.
Old friend, Why are you so shy It aint like you to hold back or hide from the light!
I hate to turn up out of the blue invited.
But i could stay away.
I couldnt fight it.
I'd hope you would see my face and you would remember that for me, IT ISNT OVER YET!
Never mind..I'll find someone like you...
I wish nothing but the best for you!
BUT dont forget ME!
I BEG!
I remember you said " Sometimes it lasts in love...
But sometimes it hurts instead!
You know how the time flys only yesterday WAS THE TIME of OF OUR LIVES!
We were born in and raised in a summer haze..
Bound by the surprise by the glory days.
I do hate to turn up out of the clear blue uninvited.
But I COULDNT stay AWAY!
I COULDNT FIGHT IT!
I hoped you would see my face and that you would be reminded that...
FOR ME ITS NOT OVER YET!
But never mind, Ill find someone like you thats whatsyoud wish but its not as easy as you wished!
Our forgotten love will allways be embedded deep within my heart even if NO ONE else remembers besides ME and YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUGGIE!
I WILL ALLWAYS LOVE YOU TILL I TAKE MY LAST BREATH!
STEVE

Didn't mean for me to suffer so much. Wait for me my love!!!

We are at the party, wish you were here. I need you so much I love you UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

I've been out helping Joy get stuff for the party, her husband Rodney, has the same birthday as you my love. We got all the landscape lights fix to day. I'm telling you Lee you would have gone crazy over this party. All the lights around the pool are working We have more palms and flowers than you ever saw. I just dont know what God was thinking when HE took you from me.He should have know me well enought to know that I would never get over you. You were and still are and alway will be My Heart and Soul. Until my heart stopos beating.

Hi my sweet, have I told you lately that I love you. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, Monday is your birthday. Wait for me.

Got here at 7:30 am. Broke the key off in my trunk and had to call a locksmith, there went 200. I don't know if the guy that is fixing my car will have time to finish it before I leave Sunday. I can come back to get it painted. If he just gets the repairs done. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Slept all day. Leaving at 12 midnight for McAllen call when I get there!!! LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

I don't know what I did. I won't be able to talk much. I have so much to do before I leave. I'll be able to talk after I get to McAllen, I LOVE YOU MY LOVE UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.

Good morning, sweet baby. Loving you today like a fat kid loves cake. I'm so busy today leaving tomorrow for McAllen.

Today is Friday, if I sleep most of the weekend I won't miss you so much. What am I going to do without you??? Loving you and you loving me back was everything I ever asked God for, and I had it for a little while, but I wanted it for ever. I wanted to grow really old in your arms. Having you hold me all night while I slept was heaven to me. I want you back! I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Well, I got my tickets for Vegas and a car, going to the dam, be gone 7 days. Got lots to do, I love you with all my heart and soul. My heart wants you to be here with me and going to Vegas, you would love it, my fun loving man. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me.

Thinking about you, and missing you today. Will my broken heart ever heal???? I love you so very much. Got to go REMEMBER THIS I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Lost another friend, Aaron, going back to Nederland friday for his service. I miss you so much, will it ever get any better my love? I'll talk to you later. REMEMBER THIS: I WILL LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Still trying to get tickets for Vegas. You are such a fun loving guy, I can't realize what the world would be like have you lived. I know in my heart that God took you for a reason, I just don't know what that is! I dont want no body but you. A friend told me about two books and I bought them, "90 minutes of Heaven and Heaven is real". I cant wait to read them. I'm leaving on the 9th or 10th of August for McAllen and on 20th thru the 28 for Vegas. not going to have much time to write, BUT REMEMBER THIS YOU ARE MY SOUL MATE, YOU HOLD MY HEART, AND I'LL LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING..Wait for me

Trying to get tickets to Vegas. If you were still here, tell me you wouldn't just be so happy you couldn't sit still. LOL I just could see you getting off the plane in Vegas, I would have to tie your butt down. My heart aches so much right now I can't catch my breathe. Personally I dont think God should let anyone hurt so much!!!I want you to know::::::: I'LL LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Didn't get to bed until 3:30am, it's 9:30am, I'm at work, talk about tired. I just got to get these payroll reports done and Hills payroll, I would love to go back to bed. Talk later, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, AND MAYBE LONGER, you're mine..

Gosh, its 8:45pm, just getting started on Hills payroll. If you were here you could talk to me and keep me company. I went and worked at Nacol's today. Tonight I'm doing Hills. In 2 weeks, I'm going to Mc Allen, be back on the 15th or 16th, that's your birthday or your mother. Leaving on the 20th to go to Las Vegas with my daughter, Courtney, until the 28th. She is playing in a pool tournment for $250,000.. Wouldn't that be nice. Supposed to get the red car fixed while I'm in McAllen. Got to get this payroll stuff done, REMEMBER: I WILL LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me, my love

Gosh I've been busy, my mother is a mess. I've just been so busy I haven't been able to write, but know you're in my mind and heart everyday. I've been at work since Friday need to get to work. Know that I love you with all my heart and soul UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING

Good Morning Sunshine, Got a lots to do today, pedicure and nail, payroll for my friend, cook for my mother, payroll reports. I need to start getting all my payroll reports out. I love you sweet baby. You know I'm still looking for you to come thru the back door. Our life together just got started, I was looking for a great life with you!! But in a second you were gone forever. You will never know how much you are going to miss someone. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. GOD help me

Hi my love, loving you like a fat kid loves cake. Loss my keys to my trunk. Things not going good. Oh well I guess it could be worse. Going to take my mother around this evening. Got lots of work talk later. REMEMBER: I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. I do love you so!!

Hey Sweet Baby, did it again, slept from Monday night at 12 to Tues at 4:30pm. I have to do something about this sleeping. Missed last night's grief support, had to go take care of Mother. I don't like the first night because I still have a hard time talking about you. The Lord has given me a cross to bare. I'm looking forward to the day I can say your name without tears in my eyes. My mother needs me now. She wants to talk about old times and our family. I don't have time to think about us as much. But don't think for one minute I don't miss you every day. REMEMBER; I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. Wait for me seeing you again will be glory. I love you!!

Went to Lake Charles to paint a lion, it's great just like my leo the lion. Didn't go to Tyler slept from Friday night until Sunday at noon. I just don't know why I'm sleeping so much. On the 24th of July I'm going to paint a picture of Crystal Beach and Galveston in the back ground. I love you and miss you so much. God I didn't know I could love you so much. God I hope you know I miss you and STILL LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Oh, just got to work, slept all day, I'm tell you I have got to get out of this. Talk to Tomi Jean going to give her a little help, see what she does with it. Going to Tyler tomorrow to see Toni Jean. Look who was so crazy about these Tomi Jean, Toni Jean, Joan Jean. Sometime I dont know who I'm talking to. I love and miss you, I never thought I would love someone so much, when you left you took my heart with you. Just hold on to it for me until we meet again. I LOVE YOU MY LOVE UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Hey, sweet pea, I am so sleepy can hardly hold my eyes open go to counciling at 12:00 then I think I'm going to go home and sleep. That seem to be all I do is sleep, can't get enough. Got to get payroll quarterly out, lots of work. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. WAIT FOR ME!!

Good Morning, Sweetie. I close my eyes and I see your face. No matter where you are; you are on my heart, I may never get over you. I never planned on loving someone so much, I miss you so much. With out you, makes life hard to live. REMEMBER; I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING; UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN

Hey, missing you something awful today. Its been a year you think it would get better, but it hasn't yet. God what I would give to wake up and you be beside me! OMG I misss you, I love you so much, why can't I get pass this? I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me my love!!!

Well I made it back from McAllen last night. Wrote a note to Tomi Jean, I hope she is okay. Love and miss you, got more to do today than is possible. You know I pierced my nose. Well that wasn't meant to be, and I didn't like it. It fell out this morning. My family is happy. Got to get to work, REMEMBER I love you with all my heart and soul, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Got the finest lion on the back of my neck, you would love it I can't wait to meet you again, I love you to pieces. With alll my heart and soul, until we meet again, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. WAIT FOR ME MY LOVE.

LOVING YOU THIS MORNING as always. Going home tomorrow, getting the car fixed in August. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Hey sweetie Loving you like a fat kid loves cake!!!! Got my nose pierced. I'm sure you would just love that. LOL This old woman thinks she is 25. Didn't you think so too? Going to get a lion at the back of my neck today I hope. I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING

Good Morning my love! Today is Thursday, been busy, going messing around after lunch. I miss you. Got to go. Remember I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Stopping for lunch, The guy came this morning gave me a bid on fixing the car. And I took it. Going to bring it back on the 11th of Aug to get it fixed. Thinking about piercing my nose, Joy and me LOL!!! Missing u and loving you as always. LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, WAIT FOR ME MY LOVE

You thought I foregot, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Just quit working someone is coming to look at the car in the morning. I had a bad Saturday and Sunday. I wish everybody care as much about you when you were alive than they act like they do since you passed. You know a promise is a promise and I'm keeping mine.

Good morning in McAllen, will be here a week. Then back hone for 2 weeks then a nother week in MCAllen; 3 days home and a week in vegas. I try to stay busy but I always have to go home. At the end of the day I'm always are looking for you. Got to do some work, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING

Hey, baby, tomorrow will be a year since you left my world, I know you are in a better place, to bad I'm not. I went to my friends visitation at Nederland Broussard's last night, I still can walk out the back door of the funeral home, I can see you at the back of your truck with Bobby and Sheri calling Timi. Now you're gone, Timi is gone, your mother is gone, your dad is gone, your cousin is gone and I'm left here, What the heck do you think God was thinking. Toni Jean is here, but bless her heart, she can't get it together. I LOVE YOU, LEE LIKE I NEVER LOVE ANYBODY ELSE. UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN

Loving you like a fat kid loves cake. The last thing I need was for God to take you from me. I'm sure there is a reason, just wished I knew what that reason was. But I don't think knowing the reason would make the pain any less. Just can't wrap my brain around you being gone. I waited all my life for the love and feelings you gave to me. A friend told me, Nancy, what you and Lee had some people never have, take what you got and run with it. But I don't seem to be able to do that at this point. The 2th of july is coming up fast, I wish I could just sleep the day away, but I can't. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.

Good morning my love. Another day missing you. I wonder if it will ever get better!! Going to the Doctor, will talk later, I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Good after noon, my love. Not good, hope to be better going to McAllen Sunday, staying a week hope to get the car fixed and find Shelby a car. I love you, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. GOSH , I miss you.

Went to the party yesterday, it was real nice. Shelby and I got our picture done with you, she made me copy it so she would have one. Sleeping 40 hours again, just got to work. I hope Saturday comes and goes fast, can't talk Please know that I love you with all my heart and soul. UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Oh my God, WHY??? I love and miss you my sweet baby. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, I'LL LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Well, today is Thursday, Monique goes on her ACTS retreat today. I hope she has a good time. The 2nd is getting here pretty quiick. I'm getting the balloons ready and the cards to attach. I think Courtney, Mike, Shelby, and me are going to let the balloons go in Fannett and Crystal Beach. Maybe if I get over this first year I can make it. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Hey, gosh, I'm tired and the day has just started. Cant wait for Sunday and our little party, Shelby is looking forward to it. She misses you so much, also. You think we will ever get over this lonelyness. When I got home yesterday I just knew you were going to be bee-boping thru the back door. I know your not! But sometimes I think, MAYBE!! I love you so much, I just can't wait to see when we meet again, how its going to be. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Good morning sunshine, Austin was okay, slept from Sunday at 10:oopm until this morning until 7:00am. The Wedding was great you would have loved it. Real classy. July 2th is coming up on me fast. I'm going to the beach and let some balloons go for you and some in McAllen for your birthday. I just can't seem to wrap my brain around the fact you are gone, that you are not going to come hopping thru the back door. You made my life so complete, I cant wait until we meet again. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me my LOVE

Getting ready to leave for Austin. I'm going to try to have a great time. Know I'm loving you ever day. Until my heart stops beating.

Forgot to write today, went to the doctor first thing this morning and just forgot. I'm working on Carwash books try to get them finish before I go to Austin tomorrow. When I get back from Austin, I got an Audit in McAllen. Trying to stay business. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING

Hey, Cutie, Missing you like crazy. Busy as hell. Going to Austin with Ms Hill Friday thru Sunday, then Tuesday going to McAllen for a week, then back in Beaumont for the Broussard's party with Shelby. When to the doctor yesterday he increase my medicine to 90 mg. Sure hope it helps. Got to go get Meagan I will talk later, REMEMBER I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Good morning Sunshine, I'm going to make it thru this one way or the other. Court won her pool game and is going to Vegas in August, thinking about going with her. It seems like all I want to do is sleep. Got to get some work out. REMEMBER: I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Loving you this morning, God is going to help me thru this, he has to. Gosh, I feel like it just happened I feel like I'm making steps backward. In two weeks it will be a year, my heart aches like its got a hole in it the size of Texas. I didn't know loving you was going to be this hard. I'm waiting for God to take over this pain, I dont know if I won't let him or just not time yet. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN WAIT FOR ME MY LOVE. LOVVVVVVING YOOOU!

Good morning my love still in Houston, might be going home in time to go to hear the key board man. Not good weekend, REMEMBER THIS, LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.,

God help me! I miss you so much, like in the beginning, I guess it is because we are coming up on a year. I'm in Houston, doesn't help much. I just want you back!!!! I think sometimes what we have some people never have, I'm just not sure all this pain is worth it!!! I know in my heart it is, but God give me some relief, make me know when I meet you again it will be the same. UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING AND THEN SOME

Today is no better, Know I love you with all my heart. Going to Houston, just got to get away. God why???? You are the love of my life and always will be, until my heart stops beating and then some

I'm so lonely, I've got to move on with my life, I just have to wrap my mind around it. Love you, until my heart stops beating.

Good Morning, got a new phone last night, its got so many bells, I dont know what to do with it maybe take it back??? Real busy today, know that I love you and miss you. UNTIL MY HEARY STOPS BEATING AND THEN SOME

Went and played pool last night, loss, but that's what I'm suppose to do. LOL I need to work in the yard, it rain most of yesterday and last night so the ground is soft. Now I can put the new brick in around the flower beds. and tile for the front patio. Ok, get that done then what???? Just cant wrap my head around it. I miss you so much. I just keep moving hope I make it. God took you away from me, to give me something better cant figure out what that would be, but i'm waiting. I WILL ALWAY LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Hi Sweet Baby, back from Tyler, called Sammy he didn't answered. I'm going to be home this weekend. Next weekend I'm going to Austin, to a Wedding, when I get back from that I'm going to McAllen for a week. When I drove into Tyler, I felt you in my soul. Got to get to work, REMEMBER: I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Hi, Dont look like I'm going to Dana's, so I'm going on to Tyler. I think Toni Jean is coming back with me. Or thats what she is saying now. I'm so tired of this. I deserve so much more than I'm getting. God finally gave me what I deserve and then He took it back. Thank God for bad luck or I wouldn't have any luck at all. One day I'm going to be happy just wait for me, okay?? REMEMBER: I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, AND MAYBE THEN!!!

Good Morning, my love, Peyton spend the night We watched 2 of the movies and at lunch today we are going to watch the 3rd. Going to Dana's tomorrow. Then Saturday to Toni's. Got to get some work out today. Remember This: I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART , UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. AND THEN SOME!!!!

Good morning, my love, Another day, huh! I went to my counselor yesterday, she's got me on every week again, you know 1/2 step forward and 2 steps back. I'm picking up Peyton this evening, should be fun, she is such a sweet child. "Going to the doctor in a few. I'll be glad when this is over, Dont carry for doctors. I'm going to make a appointment with Groves, SOON. Got to go REMEMBER; I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.......

Good morning, my love, I have missed writing you the last 3 days, but I slept for almost 3 days. I didn't go to the beach to see if I could rent Peggy's RV spot will go this week some time. Paul and I are going to cut down a tree today, and get me a new phone. Peyton, Monique's daughter, is coming over Wednesday to see the Twilight Saga, I bet you are loving that. I miss you so much. I try to stay business but its hard. Going to see Dana Friday and spend the night and Saturday going to Tyler to see Toni Jean. What am I going to do with out you, my love. Its just so hard!!Going to work, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, JUST KEEP LOVING ME.

Boy, thank God it's Friday; off until Tuesday. Last year at this time we were heading to Crystal Beach, loving each other and having a ball, fishing, crawfish boil, and lots of fun. God I miss you, can't wait until we meet again. Going to Dana's next Friday, then to Toni's Saturday. Sunday night home and drink some beer.LOL. I got a new picture of you from Dana yesterday, it's you and Donna at some pool hall at Crystal. It doesn't look like God is going to let me get even. I'll just have to wait and see. Got to go to work, REMEMBER: I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING!!! AND THEN SOME

Hi, I hate telling the same old story everyday hopely it will get better. I'm going to the party in June, taking Shelby, think I'm going to have a picture made with Shelby, You and me. I dont think that will be to sad, it will be with us fishing at the beach, something I can give Shelby when I'm gone. Going to see Toni next weekend the 4th. Getting stuff together for Paul's party. Got to get to work. REMEMBER: I LOVE AND MISS YOU UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Good morning, Love. Went to grief support last night, we are having a picnic next month should be fun. They try so hard at Broussard's, they are wonderful. Working on Hill's audit, getting ready for Paul's 40th birthday party. It's coming around to a year on your death. Talk later, I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, AND MAYBE LONGER.

Well, I'm back, went to party, took Meagan to get a shirt. Talk to Toni Jean, Tomi Jean is out. Dana's having some problems, I've been so depressed I guess it's getting Summer time which was your time of the year. I got a friend thats going to take me fishing. I hope I don't cry the whole time. Got lot of stuff to do. I love you with all my heart, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING AND THEN SOME!!!!

I feel you this morning, gosh, I miss you. Took Meagan shopping last night, need to take her this evening too. She got a skirt last night now she needs a shirt. Joseph's Birthday party is tomorrow, Rene' is coming in for it. Paul and I got the river rock yesterday, put it in the flower beds. Got some new plants, put the big Butterfly up; the yard looks good. Got to get to work, hope I have a good day. REMEMBER THIS: I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, AND THEN TOO..

Hi Sweet Baby, You told me one day you were going to start using the name of Travis, well every morning I type in Travis and I don't like it. You are my "Lee". I'm going to call Peggy and see if I can get the lot we stayed at Crystal for the 4th, and let some balloons go, maybe I have already told you this. My Monique gave me a journal for Mothers days, I guess she does,'t like me writing to you on here. Oh Well, I need to for now. I wouldn't want noone to think I every stopped talking to you, you are my whole heart and soul mate. Got to get to work; know that I love you, UNITL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, AND MAYBE THEN. Wait for me!!!

Good morning Sun Shine, I went to San Antonio yesterday, to see about my lap band since I had gain so much weight. They said most of the weight gain was from stress and grief from your death. Not only do I have a broken heart from your lost, I now have a fat A**. LOL My lap band is in good shape and he gave me a fill. Nice doctor I really liked him, I got back last night. I'm back at work this morning, not sure for how long. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. UNITL WE MEET AGAIN.You know God could send you back as a new love, that would work for me. Later

Good morning my love, I sleep for a couple days again, Just can't get enough sleep. I'm going to call Peggy and see it I can have the spot at the beach for the 4th of July? I'm going to let some balloons go and maybe get Avant to sing. I'm trying to get things to go better, doesn't seem to work out. REMEMBER THIS: I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Oh not going to Grief support tomorrow, I'm seeing a doctor in San Antonio. I love you my love.

Well yesterday didn't go good. I'll have to try something else. God, why did you take Lee, I miss him so much I don't know what to do. My heart aches for you my love. I try to stay busy, but sometimes it just doesn't help. Got to go, REMEMBER: I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Well, today maybe the day, who knows. I'm so tired I dont know what to do. Next Tuesday I have a appointment in San Antonio to see a doctor about my lap-band. Going to make a turn around trip leave at 6:00am get back that night sometime. Didn't get Toni Jean one of her dogs was sick, so I didn't go get her. Will later. Need to work, I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, WAIT FOR ME!!

I wish sometime I could forget, but I can't so I guess I'll have to do the best I can with what I got left. I'm going to get Toni Jean at noon today. I hope everything goes good. Got to get some work done. REMEMBER THIS: I'LL LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, remember me my love.

You think I forgot about you, Not in this life time. Miss you like a fat kid loves cake. Just about got all of Hills stuff done and to the auditor, I'll be glad when I get it there. Going to go get Toni tomorrow. She is going to stay about a week or a couple days whatever she can do. She called me crying this morning, she is lonely. I know you dont want me in this sh*t but I got to do what I got to do, She is hurting. Got to get to work. REMEMBER: I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. Please wait for me.

Good morning, my love I sleep for 31 hours, didn't get up until today at 7:15am. Thats why I didn't write yesterday. I ready to go. Need to get stuff done. I got to finish Hills audit this weekend. I love you, like a fat kid loves cake. I can't wait to see you. I'm going to go get Toni the weekend of 14th. she is going to stay a few days. REMEMBER THIS IF YOU NEVER REMEMBER ANYTHING ELSE.........I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING AND THEN SOME.

Hey, loving you today, missing you forever. When to support last night. Boy, I need it. Fixing to go off on some people, hope they are ready. Got to get hill's audit ready might not get to write to after Monday, but I will try. Barry called me today, I got a copy of his Wedding to Timi and He is just excited. I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.

Good morning, if the days don't get better I don't know what I'm going to do. I got so much to do. I just want to lay in the bed and sleep for about three days. Not feeling good to day, talk later. I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.

Well tomorrow will be 10 months, I hurt and miss you as much as I did 10 months ago, It dont get any better no matter what people say. I had to work today to get all my payroll reports out, Fixing to go have a couple of beer and listen to Jack play the keyboard. I wish you were here with me, I MISS YOU SO MUCH UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, MY HEART ACHES FOR YOU, LOVING YOU.

Got your mother's ashes in vial for Toni, today and your ashes in a vial for Meagan. She wanted to have one for her daddy to but Sandy wouldn't give her any ashes. Said your daddy said no!! Meagan told me today if anything happen to her would I wear her ashes, poor baby. She losed her mother 12 years ago, her brother 10months ago, her daddy 9 months ago, her sister 2 months ago, doesnt seem like she has a chance. I'm going to support this Tuesday, I really need it. I LOVE YOU UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN!! UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. I need you so much, Just one hour would do, I need a chance to say good bye and I love you.

Didnt feel well yesterday, but back at work today. Meagan is spending the night tonight. We are going to watch some movies, straighten up the house. Got to work this weekend got payroll reports to get out. Need to get to work, REMEMBER this I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. I just want one more hour with you, I want to be sure you know I love you with every breath I take!!

Well, got them flip flops done, they are just as ugly on the picture as they were in real life. Talk to Dana last night, think we are going to take a trip, just to get away. Not sure. Got to get Hill's stuff done this week so the CPA can do the audit. I'll be glad when that is over, I hate these audits. I can tell today is going to be one of those days that you are going to be on my mind all day, I just miss you so much, God should not do this to people the pain and loneliness is unbearable. Its cloudy outside and I feel so lonely. I know what you and I had something people never get, but somedays I think Its not worth it. Got to go, REMEMBER THIS: I'll always love you UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, I want you here!!!!!!!
my sweet love. I just miss you so.

Going to paint a pair of them ugly shoes you wore, going to miss grief support tonight but this is the only night they are doing this picture. You know which ones, those flip flops that were so ugly. Putting this painting in the hall. Just to laugh at every time I go down the hall. I'm going to rest peacefully soon, I hope. Need to get to work, I love you with all my heart, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. WAIT FOR ME MY LOVE.

Good morning, my love, Had a wonderful time in Tyler, Toni is doing good. Larry takes good care of her. Toni and me had a ball, we laughed and cried. It was good. It was hard to leave, Sammy is stilll not real happy with me, but oh. A friend of ya'll died while I was there "Jimbo" from morningside. When by Kenneth's couldn't find the butterfly but thats okay. Got to get to work, I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. WAIT FOR ME MY LOVE.

Just got home from Tyler talk tomorrow I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING

Gosh, Baby, I have so many secrets, I can hardly wait until I can tell these secrets, you know some of these people think they got it under control, to bad they don't. Going to the doctor this morning maybe I'll write later, but remember this I'll always love you, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

I dont know why, I said I would write when I got under control, I must have been kidding myself, I'll never be under control since you're gone. I love you Mr Meadows with all my heart and soul. I when to grief support last night, I was so blowed away, I am not sure I heard anything he said, hopefully next week will be better. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN LOVE ME ALWAYS.

The pressure is off of tax season, and the emotions are burning like wild fires, dont seem to be able to stop crying today. I'll write you later when I'm under control, I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, WAIT FOR ME !!!!

Its Sunday night 10:30 just got back from Houston had a good shopping day. Talk tomorrow I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING!!!!!

What a day, its beautiful, We could be at the beach, fishing up a storm, getting some sun and loving each other. The summer is going to be bad for me, I MISS YOU SO MUCH, I CANT HARDLY STAND IT. Got to get to work, I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Hi good looking, busy, busy. I'll write again soon, Missing you and loving you. Until my heart stops beating. You know it doesn't get better. I don't care what they say.
The only differents is the physical pain is not as bad as it was at first. You are the love of my life and always will be.

Hey, boy, miss you like a fat kid loves cake. You think I'll every get over this? God, I love you. My heart aches for you everyday, I just don't know what God was thinking. I'm to busy to get on this subject now. Got work to do, REMEMBER, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU UNTI L MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Good morning, I thought I would write before I got to tired. I can't wait to go to Tyler Easter weekend to see Toni Jean. Gosh, I never knew loving you was going to be so easy and yet so very very hard. You know I knew that first night you were going to be the one that I have waited all my life for, Why God took you I'll never know, but loving you those months was the difference between never and always, I love you with all my soul and heart and UNTI L MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me my love.

When to grief support tonight. To tired I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN

Hey, Sweet Baby, Last week of tax season might be to busy to write, but I will try. Loving you and missing you like nobodys business. Tomorrow is Grief support need to go bad. Cant wait to see Toni, I think I'm going to bring her a computer I got at home, think she will like that? Iam sure she doesn't have any internet but maybe she can go to someones house who has it. Got to get to work, I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTILL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. I LOVE YOU DARLING.

Hello, Mr Meadows, how beautiful is it where you are? What are you and Timi doing??? What you think God was thinking? I wrote Timi yesterday. Toni is trying to find things for me and her to do when I go next week. She wants me to bring your ashes to her. Looks like you get to ride with me one more time. LOL Cant wait for Tuesday, I need to go to grief support, I missed last Tuesday, so busy. I'm at work need to get busy, I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, Can't wait to see you, wait for me. my love

Boy, today started off bad, when I went on Broussards,Online Memorials, instead of putting your name I put mine. My head is in a cloud. I got 10 more days, yea. I can't wait until the 23th I'm going to see Toni. She doesnt text or call me much, but she is sweet when she does. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. Take care and wait for me.

hey, I'm so busy, I dont know if I found a rope or lost a horse. Miss you and loving you like nobody's business. The chest doesn't hurt as much when I'm this busy. Just wanted you to know you are always on my mind. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING

Good morning Sweet Baby, Missing you. I didn't make it to Grief support last night worked to 11:30, Getting sick of all this work. I talk to Toni yesterday, going to see her Easter weekend, I am really looking forward to the visit. Got tons of work talk later. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me, I need you.

You think I forgot about you, NO WAY. Just been so busy. Took Shelby to the fair, Sunday, took her home, went and had a couple beers and listen to the keyboard, Monday send to Diana's mother's funeral, I'm sick of funerals and losing people I love. Then worked at Nacol's, came back to Bruce's did a couple of returns and talk to Dana until 12:30. You know I'm not going to give up on you and what happen, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Had fun at the fair, got me some butterfly earrings. got up this morning went to Houston came home to night; picked up Shelby going to take her to the fair tomorrow. I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING

Good morning, my love, going to the fair tonight with Rene' and Buel, should be fun. I can eat, the last time I have gain about 40 lbs since you pass, Need to go to San Antonio, to get my lap band checked, before I hit 200, LOL. Got to get to work, I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING AND MISSING YOU SOMETHING AWFUL, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. Love me and wait for me.

Hey, Sweet Baby, missing you! My grief support meetings start up on April 5, and boy it time. I'm going to have the two seater fix real soon. Except, where you pulled a Ronnie Meadows, I going to keep that dent forever. LOL Still working 12 to 16 hours a day, working at least 7/12s. Cant wait until 4/18/11. Yea! Got to get back to work. I LOVE YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. MISSING YOU UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN!!

Gosh, bad day, over slept, late to work, But not as bad as missing you. Denice put something ugly on facebook hope she wasn't talking about me. Who cares, not me, all I care about is you and the next time we meet. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.

Good morning, my love, I will be glad when tax season is over, tired could sleep for about 40 hours. Had a bad deal with Toni yesterday, She is sick, liver not working good. I thought Dana and I was going to have to go to Tyler. I pray everyday for her. She misses you and Timi. I do too, but I have friends and family that take care of me when I don't feel like going on, she don't. Tomi is still in jail. I'm going to see them after tax season. Need to go to work, I miss you and love you UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING AND MAYBE LONGER. MAKE ME FEEL LOVE UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.

Hey, BABY, I have had a bad weekend looking forward to the work week. I got me a new bathsuit, black & white dots. LOL I'm putting yours and mine (flag ones) in your shadow box. I think after the 15th Courtney and Mike and the kids and me are going to McFaddin, I don't think I'm ready for Crystal Beach yet. I'm at work to day, going to a church thing tonight, then have a beer at Squeeze. Home by 9:30. I got to get up early in the morning to take my car in to be fix. Got to get some work done, I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, HOLD ME IN YOUR HEART.

Good morning Sunshine, missing you this morning. Tell me something, who is going to take me fishing on the 3rd sand bar at Crystal Beach now??? Who is going to tell me I'm their world and they want to spend the rest of their life with me? God just cut my heart out when you died, I guess he wanted you to take it with you. Got to go to work. Remember this if you never remember anything else, I LOVE YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING AND MAYBE LONGER!!!!

Well, its Thursday 6:30pm still at work but we have our internet back up so I can write to you before its to late and I'm to tired.. I need to write to Sammy and send him the picture of you and Timi. Wrote Timi today. Are ya'll having fun, how about thinking about me? Its almost summer, i'm ready to go fishing and my fishing partner is gone. Why??? I just can't except the fact your gone, my love. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, WAIT FOR ME.

Loving you sweetheart. Sorry tired,until my heart stops beating

Another 12 hour day, talk later. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING

Worked 12 hours today,tired. I LOVE YOU. I got alot to tell you just to tired to write. Until my heart stops beating

I'm in Houston, can't stand to be in Beaumont with out you.. Toni got the picture I send her of you and Timi. She thinks me and you made a cute couple. So did I! I'm going to send Sammy the same picture of ya'll, when I have time to write him a letter. I need to go to San Antonio to get this doctor to check my lap band, since I gain so much weight. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN !! I love you so.

MISS YOU TODAY,I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING

Yesterday was great! Shelby & I had a great time. Worked 12 hours today,tired. I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING

Hey, babe, going on a trip with Broussard's tomorrow taking Shelby. Worked hard again today. Due date of corporation's return. Talked to Toni today,I'm senting her a picture of you & Timi. I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Good morning sunshine, Gosh, I'm busy. I miss you so much. They tell me this will pass, you think you can tell me when? The hurt in my heart is unreal, I hope GOD has something wonderful plan for me, because this pain should be worth something great. I waited so long for you, to have such a short period of time with you, but it was worth it, I got something alot of people never get-MY SOUL MATE!!! I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.

Oh, my love, I hurts so bad today, I dont know what I will do without you. I look at your smiling face and my heart just lights up. I miss you so much. Its getting summer time and boy am I going to miss you. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. WAIT FOR ME.

Not well, talk later, I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Hi!! thats about all I have to say for now, another bad day. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Loving you was wonderful. until we meet again

God my chest hurts, Why Lee, just tell me Why, I loved you so. Not a good day, but then no day is a good day anymore. Well before I get cut off of here I guess I better go. Remember: UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING AND MAYBE MORE!!! I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, MY LOVE. WAIT FOR ME.

Good morning my LOVE, I promise I'm going to do better, I know you don't want me to be lost in this whirl wind. I'm trying to get my life back on schedule, the best way I can. I know that any minute I'm going to wake up and you are going to be holding me and says," It okay, baby, everything is going to be okay." Nobody should have to hurt the way I do, God should be able to do something. I just want one more hour with you. I just have to know everything is okay with you. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. You're the man!!

Hey sweet baby, miss you, it gets harder everyday, to write. Should it not be getting easier? ? I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. I'm really going to miss you when summer gets here, you were such a summer guy.

Another week is passed, gosh, I miss you you think things will every get better? I'm just beated. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, LOVE ME!!!

Hey, my love, I went home at 4:00, got on the couch and took a pain pill and when to sleep, Dana called and woke me up at 8:30pm when back to sleep until this morning. I could sleep 24/7. I dont hurt when I'm a sleep. Going to work at Nacols today at noon when I get through at Bruce's. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. LOVING YOU ALWAYS..

Good morning love, Well, I held the picture and got a few words out. God I miss you, can't wait until I see you again. I'm doing a little better, I think, I just miss you so much I think I'm going to burst. The hole in my heart is unreal, I just want to see you one more time. Got to go, to much today. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, WAIT FOR ME.

WEll, today will be very business, my love. I got grief support tonight with a pot luck, I'm going to tell them about you my love and your lovely sister. Wish me luck, this is the three one I have been to, all I do is cry maybe tonight I can talk or at least hold the picture. Rember this: I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU WITH ALL MY HEART, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, LOVING YOU ALWAYS.

Back from retreat, got home at 3:30 went to sleep and got up today at 11:00. I was tired. Everything went good. I'm going to call Barry tonight, to check on him, and Sammy and Toni and Meagan, when I get back from the church meeting. I love you withall of my heart. I just can't wait to see you, you are my soul mate. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING AND UNTIL I MEET YOU AGAIN. WAIT FOR ME!!

Well, its Thursday and I'm off to Lake Charles for the ACTS retreat. Be back Sunday for noon Mass. I hope this helps me as much as it helps the retreatant. I talk to Barry yesterday, he was doing ok, but Tuesday was a bad day for him. We all miss Timi except you, because she is there with you. I guess we will never know the whole story about Timi, like we will never know the whole story about you. Toni called me she is in bad shape, think you can get God to give her a little help, she should could use it. Got to finish packing, I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, MY LOVER.

Omg, I miss you so much, I have tried not to write everyday but it don't make me feel any better. In fact I feel better when I write. I love you and nothing than can say is every go to change that. You were my heart and soul, and I'm going to love you until my heart stops beating. They think I'm crazy because I write you everyday, but it helps me I think. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. MY HEART BEATS FOR YOU!!

Hey, there, missing you alot. Whats you and Timi doing? I talk to Barry this morning, he's not doing to good. Sammy took me off his facebook, his lost not mine. He made his choice, he now has to live with it. I sleep all day long. Fixing to go back to sleep. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTL WE MEET AGAIN, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.

Just got back from Tulsa, OK, it was 10 hrs up there Wednesday and 10 hrs back today. We buried your Sister, Timi. Barry is a basket case. The whole thing was awful. Sammy or Toni didnt come because they though Timi didnt want to be buried. I really didnt care, just as long as I got to see her and tell her bye. She looked great, Barry got her a beautiful casket and buried her in a cemetery that was beautiful with tall Pine trees around her. They are going to have a memorial for her in Tyler, Saturday. I hope things go great. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU. UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. WAIT FOR ME, MY LOVER.

God help me, please. I talk to Dana last night for 6 hours, she had a lot to say, about how much she love you and Timi, I'm talking about UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. I told her that I wanted that picture that Timi painted with me the first of December, 2010. Poor Barry called me today, to tell me he wanted me to have the picture, I could have jump thru the phone to thank him. I think I'm going to Tulsa,OK tomorrow even if the funeral is not Friday. Sammy called me yesterday, they are having a memorial for Timi Saturday in Tyler. I'm trying to get to both. You Meadows are killing me,litterly, what is next, Toni, your little sister, liver is dying, no transplant, you know why. I LOVE YOU, SWEET BABY, AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. WAIT FOR ME, I will need you when I get there. "Sister-in-law", I love you too.

Well must have done something wrong, yesterday hasn't come up yet. Talk to Dana, think Timi's funeral will be Saturday. I'm ready to go to Tulsa, I want and need to see Timi, because like you I dont want to believe it. How can God do this? When I lost you, your sister became attached to my Hip, counted on me to do it all for her, like she did you. Now she is gone. I just need to keep it together and things will work out I guess. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, MY LOVE. WAIT FOR ME.

Good Morning, you two. I talked to Dana last night. I hope to go by Tyler and get the picture of Marilyn, that Timi done. I know you two are sitting up there laughting at me. You know I'm going to get even with ya'll, maybe not today or tomorrow, but some day. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. "LOVE DOESN'T MAKE THE WORLD GO ROUND, BUT IT MAKES THE RIDE WORTH WHILE." I love you, Lee, oh and you to Timi, my heart felt friend.

Well, How you like your sister, Timi, being there with you??? I guess ya'll are going to leave me here by myself. Now you have your mother, your dad, your sister, your nephew, I guess your happy, Timi couldn't make it without you, she's happy now. I LOVE YOU TWO WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. AND MORE THAN LIKELY LONGER!!!!!!

Good morning, Sunshine. Going to paint a picture of the beach tonight at Painting with a Twist. It reminds me of you, the name is "Beach awaits", its just the dume with stairs over it. It looks like I can see you running over it, but its lonely like me. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, NEVER STOP LOVING ME.

We are going on a trip(Shelby & me) with Broussard's in March, cant wait. Shelby is thrilled too. It is really relaxing to take this trips. Got to do payroll to night, going to paint a beach scene tomorrow night, it reminds me of you, and it looks lonely like me. I think your sister is coming down, not sure, she is so unhappy, I really want her to be happy, she needs it. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING AND THEN SOME. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, WAIT FOR ME, MY LOVE.

Lots of work, I'll be working 24/7. Got grief support tonight. Really need to go. Missed last week because of the retreat. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. UNTIL I SEE YOU AGAIN, BE MINE!

Well when to mass yesterday at 12:00, then had a meeting with the ACTS Sister. Have reschedule the Retreat until Feb 24-27. And its going to be in Lake Charles. When Squeeze last night, didnt get to hear much music because of the ball game. Stayed later than usual, got home about 10:30. Gosh I miss you. You would have so much fun. I just can't believe your gone. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. UNTIL I SEE YOU AGAIN. YOU ARE MY HEART, MY SOUL, AND MY LIFE, WAIT FOR ME.

I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING

Well ACTS retreat got cancel, back at work, miss you like you wouldn't believe. I'm so lost without you. Dont know what to do or where to go. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. YOU ARE MY LIFE.

Good Morning Sunshine, I love you this morning. I got to get packed for ACTS tonight, I go at 9:00am tomorrow. I hope all goes well. Going to miss writing to you, you are my morning coffee. I will be 7 months tomorrow since you left, gosh I dont know how I made it this long without, but I have by the grace of God. I guess that saying " The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you." is true. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. YOU ARE MY HEART AND SOUL AND MY LIFE

You're in a better place I heard a thousand times. And at least a thousand times I've rejoyed for you. The reason why I'm broken The reason why I cry Is how long must I wait to be with you? I close my eyes and I see your face. If home's where my heart is Then I'm out of place. Lord won't you give me strength to make it through somehow I never been more homesick than now. Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways. The reason why I wonder. If I'll ever know But even if you showed me The hurt would be the same. Cause I still here so far from Home. In Christ there are no good byes, In Christ there is no end. So, I'll hold on to Jesus with all that I have TO SEE YOU AGAIN. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, YOU ARE MY LIFE. Not good today!

Good morning Sweet Baby, Start to working hard now, stuff is everywhere. Thursday morning I have to be at the Community Center on Major for ACTS for 4 days, so I wont be writing you, but know that I'm thinking about you every minute. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, YOU ARE MY LIFE!!!!

Well I'm in houston, had a good time with Rena' and Buel, miss you wish you were here. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING YOU ARE MY LIFE.

Well, did you miss me, had another one of those 33 hours of sleeping. I guess I'm going to have to go see a doctor about this sleeping. More than likely just more pills, and I dont need anymore. I'm going to Houston, tomorrow for a benefit and a Birthday dinner. I wish you were going with me. oh, well. Know that I love you more than I could ever tell you. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING YOU ARE MY LIFE!!!!

Good morning, my love, just got thru talking to Dana. Talk to Timi last night, you know I need to find something to do that takes all my time, so I dont have time to hurt over you. Louise offered me a job 3 figures, 12 hours aday, that wouldn't leave much time for pain. But it is in a day care dont know if I can take cry kids for 12 hours aday 6 days a week. I just can't believe you are gone, what am I going to do without, I waited all my life for you, got you and then you were gone, and took my heart and soul with you. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. YOU ARE MY SOUL!!! LOVE AND KISSES

Must have done something wrong, Monday didn/t come thru. I had a ball, you would have loved it.I'm going to Houston this weekend I try to be gone on the weekends, because it is way to hard. Me and you would have had a ball in biloxi. My room was on the 12th floor, food was great, I learned how to play 3 card poker. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, YOU ARE MY LIFE!!!

Well, I made it back, had a great time, I'm telling you baby, if you would have been there you would have been blowed away. The food was great, the show was great, had a great time. I'm telling you, you would have been blowed away. It was right up your alley. Got to get some work done. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, YOU ARE MY LIFE.

Good morning sweet baby, Wish you were going with me this evening, you would love the 5 star motel and biloxi, ms. I could take you to the best places. I want you to have the best of everything, you deserved it. You were always giving to others it was your time. GOD WHY???? I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, MY SOUL MATE, MY TOTAL LIFE LIES WITH YOU.

My "rooter", I love you so much. Back on the couch, I dont know what it is going to take to get better. I could run down the street screaming your name in a crying fit. I'm leaving tomorrow for Biloxi, Mississippi. Gosh, I hope I have some fun. I guess I'm having a bad time because I don't want to let you go, do you have any ideal how much I loved you. I waited all my life and looked all that time for someone like you, found you and God took you and I just can't get over that!!!! What could he have been thinking?? Got to go to hard to talk. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, YOU ARE MY LIFE!!!

Guess, Guess, I slept in my bed last night first time in over six months, got a new mattress, redone the bed in red, black, & white, put my painting up Love it. When you walk into that room and see that fire red rug on the floor it blows you away. You would love it. When to grief support last night. Going to biloxi, ms this friday until sunday evening. You would love this trip, we were going to have so much fun, God why did it happen??WHY??? Got to go, I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, IN MY HEART AND SOUL.

Loving you today, Gosh, I wish you were here, to hold and care for me. grief support tonight, need it. This is the hardest thing I ever had to do. I just don't want to give you up. I want to wake up in your arms with you saying " Its going to be okay, baby". I know thats never going to happen, but I just keep hoping. How long do you think God's going to let me hurt? Got to go to work. Please, try to help me. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, LOVE ME ALWAYS. I'M LOVING YOU.

Good Morning, Didn't sleep good last night. Didn't want to get up. Got ACTS tonight. Sick of this cold weather. Signed up next month to do the painting " The Beach Awaits". Got to get to work, love you. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, MY TRUE LOVE. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.

Good afternoon, Sweetie, did a little work on the house last night. Uncover the plants, so I can put dry covers. Going to run some errands, then going to Meagens to give her some papers for grief support. Then going to go to Squeezies for a couple beers and liston to the keyboard guy. Home by 8:30pm and to bed. Mean couch. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY SOUL.

Hey Sweet Baby, missing you something awful. Didn't want to get out of bed after sleeping the day before for 31 hours. I just want to sleep. Have been working to day, need to work on the house tonight. Went to Hills this morning and I'm at Dolly's now, got to work. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, YOU ARE MY TRUE LOVE.

Hey, was down Thursday, sleep for 30 hours, I have to get over this... At work today, dont feel any better. Got to catch up with work. I love you in my heart forever. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, MY SOUL MATE.

Last night was so hard for some reason, I'm so tired of try to get thru this. I know there will come a time I will, but when?? Work is so busy, but i'm glad. Talk to Timi last night, she might be coming to stay with me. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, YOU ARE MY SOUL MATE, GOD, GOD I MISS HIM SO MUCH!!!

Well, today is Tuesday, going to grief support tonight. You know I type in Travis Meadows everyday, I think I like Lee better, I know you said you were going to start using Travis, but I like Lee. Still loving and missing you, Do you think the day will come that I won't hurt anymore?? Got to get to work, just know that I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, YOU ARE IN MY HEART AND SOUL. I DO LOVE YOU, BABY!!

Good morning, at work so glad tomorrow is Grief Support at Broussards, Man when it not there you sure miss it. Well, I got thru The 9th, thank God. I just don't know what to do now, Redo my house, move to McAllen, get another job, I just don't know what to do. My ACTS retreat is coming up this month, I'm on Team, I can't help myself, don't know how i'm going to help anybody else. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL I MEET YOU AGAIN, YOU ARE MY HEART AND SOUL!!

Well, I slept until 2:00pm to day. I remember today a year ago like it was yesterday. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL. I MISS YOU MORE THAN I CAN TELL YOU. I WILL LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. YOU ARE MY HEART AND SOUL!!!!

Sad, Sad, Sad day, I dont think tomorrow will be any better.In fact today is so bad I dont want to talk, Just take something and go to sleep, But baby know this you are my heart and soul. I LOVE YOU MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, IN MY HEART FOREVER.

Well, last night was not good. My brother thought it was time he told me how crazy I am for writing you. I thought about not writing to you on Broussard's website and to just get me a journal and write in that, but who are they to tell me how I feel and whats good for me??? I know he cares about me and he's worried but no one knows what we had. I knew on January 9, 2010, you were the one and only. I got more love, support, friendship, fun and care from you in those six months than I had in a lifetime. I dont know what I'm going to do. Mike wants me to move on, I just can't do that right now. Maybe later. I waited all my life for you, I just cant walk away now. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, YOU'RE IN MY HEART.

Good Morning, Tell your daddy Happy Birthday!!! Gosh, I'm missing you. It feels like you took my soul and heart with you, what am I going to do without you, GOD I don't know. Its to hard, I cant do this. Talk tomorrow. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, YOUR IN MY HEART FOREVER.

Hey, there, hope you are having the time of your life. I'm just dying in side, missing you so much. I just seem to get things going. My house is still just a mess, still can't sleep in my bed. I know things will get better, just dont know when. I got a lot of work coming up, hope that that will help. I just miss you so much. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, YOUR IN MY HEART FOREVER.

I'm going to try and start a new life, if I can. I think the new year was a lot harder than Christmas. I made it but bearly. I didnt know that I could miss someone so much. Loving you was the easiest thing I every did!! God gave me two soul mates, I dont think I'll get a third. You were the life of my soul and I will always love you. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, I'LL HOLD YOU IN MY SOUL AND HEART.

God I'm so glad I'm home. I didn't like not talking to you. I got to Tyler at 2:00 New Year eve and was a sleep by 7:00PM New Year eve. If you would have been here I would still be up having the best time of my life. Gosh, I miss you. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.........

Bad day, awful. On my way to Tyler. I'll be glad when all the holidays are over. Can't hardly stand it any more. I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. YOU ARE EVERYTHING!!

Hey, Sweetie, well I'm getting ready to go to Lafayette, to do the painting tonight. Then in the morning I'm going to do a payroll, then I'm off to Tyler, I dont know if I'll be able to talk to you because your brother loss his internet. So, if you dont hear from me you will know where I'm at. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, YOU ARE MY HEART AND SOUL.

Missing you this morning, I wanted you to see me this morning and I wanted to see you. You are the love of my life and always will be. I'm going to work at Nacol's this evening and then by Monique's then home to get ready to go to Tyler friday morning. Tomorrow I'm going to Lafayette, la to do a painting called "Life's Kiss". Got to go to work, I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. YOUR WERE THE MAN!!

Good morning sunshine, I have to go to work today thats no fun. Can't wait for Friday, so I can go to Tyler. I'm going to tell Timi that Santa left her gift at my house, because he thought thats where she should be!! She wanted a vile like mine with your ashes, so thats what I got her, she is going to go nuts. I love to make her happy, it feels like you are the one that i'm making happy. When to ACTS last night had a petty good time. We picked our room mate and this other girl said Nancy will you be mine, I said sure, two red heads, HAHA!! I told the ones in my group about you last night, GOD I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. CAN'T WAIT FOR GRIEF SUPPORT STARTS THE 11TH OF JAN. TALK LATER ABOUT ME MOVING.....

Well, it Monday, I am home, for 4 days then I'm going to Tyler and see Timi and Sammy. Timi was crying Christmas because her brother was gone and no one played Santa for her. I dont know if me and Timi are going to make it with out you. We will miss you forever. So many people miss you Lee, I cant hardly believe all the people that love you. I MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Well, Happy Birthday to me. Have a nice Christmas dinner at Joy's and Rodney's. I'm leaving in the morning to go back to Houston and then to Beaumont tomorrow night. Doing nothing to day but lay around and watch movies. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.. Oh, yeah, I'm thinking about moving to McAllen, talk later......

Merry Christmas, my love. Missing you like you wouldn't believe. You are my soul mate and my heart. God should have not taken you away from me. I love you so much. I dont know if I ever will get over this. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, AND MAYBE LONGER!!

I'm in McAllen, having a good time. I miss you something awful I will be glad when the holidays are over. Then I will be so business with taxes i wont have time to miss you to much. I really was looking forward to Christmas with you. Can't write much MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Hey how are you? I love you, I'm in Mcallem I WILL LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATIN

Hey Sweet Baby, missing you something awful. I'm in Houston at Buel & Rene's . Rene' is going to take me to the airport tomorrow evening. I have to be at the airport at 5:00pm. I'm going to be in McAllen until Monday morning.
We went shopping this evening and then went out to eat. Fixing to go to bed. I MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. YOU ARE ALWAYS IN MY HEART AND SOUL. LOVE YOU

When to Monique's and had our Christmas Party with the kids. They were all excited. Christmas is not fun this year, I guess the first of everything is not fun, I'm not sure the second and third will be fun. I miss you so much, just got that empty feeling, I do love you so. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART.

Sick for two days, but I'm so much better, I was hoping because of all the kids that are going to be there tomorrow. I fixing finger foods, I'll start about 5:00pm because the kids will be there at 7:00pm. I sure wish you could be there, and you will in my heart and Shelby's heart. I guess I'm having such a bad time because I know when we meet again, things with be different, I want the passion we had before you left. Oh well, Please, know that you are the LOVE OF MY LIFE.
UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, And WE MEET AGAIN. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART!!!!

Today is Friday, Monday I'm going to Monique's for Christmas, I'm wrapping Hundreds of presents. I'm leaving the 23th be gone a week come back for 3 days and leave for another week to see Timi. My son worried about me, but i'm okay!! Miss you a bunch here at the Christmas Season. I'll be glad when I fly out of here, my friend Joy is wonderful. Got to go to work. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. IN MY HEART YOU WILL ALWAYS BE!!!!!

Christmas must be getting the best of me, because I thought I wrote you yesterday. Maybe not. I went to Meagan's last night and got such wonderful pictures of you. I'm mad again because you are gone!!! Gosh, I miss you you were the perfect one of me, just as cute and lots of fun. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. YOU ARE MY HEART

Gosh, sweet baby, i'm better, missing you something awful
When to ACTS tonight, won't be going for the next 2 weeks. Timi called me last night, Gosh I want to help her Lee, there's got to be something I can do for her. She is hoping we can go paint pictures again. Got to get Meagen's gift wrapped I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, YOU ARE MY HEART AND SOUL FOREVER!!!

A little better, missing you so. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.

I'm sick don't feel good. Know that I love you. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN

Fixing to go to Meagan's program, my shopping with Peyton when good. I don't know what I'm going to do for christmas, Rene' wants me to come to Spring, Timi and Sammy want me to come to Tyler, and Joy wants me to come to McAllen. and I want to me you, but since I can't do that, I don't know what to do. I wish I could say I love you to your face one more time, the last time I saw you, you were mad at me. I dont think I could stand to think you thought I didn't LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNITL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. YOU WERE EVERTHING TO ME, HEART AND SOUL. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.

Oh, Lee, last night didn't go well. I couldn't even get up and hold your picture. Cried like a baby. Gosh, I miss you baby. Christmas is not going to go well at all. I guess you know I was going to buy that dog you want. I might buy the dog any way, maybe it will help me. Something has got to help me!! I took Peyton shopping to night. Going to work out tomorrow, and to Meagan's choir program at 6:30pm. Got to get ready for tomorrow. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU. UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN I'LL HOLD YOU CLOSE TO MY HEART.

Oh, my picture turned out great last night. Today been hard tonight is going to be harder. I thought about not going, but I better. They are going to have a Christmas party this coming Sunday. iGot to get ready for support class I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. I LOVE YOU!!!

Well, I'm fixing to go to paint class, not going to ACTS tonight I had a headache, and call in not to go. But I'm better going to paint a picture for Travis. Tomorrow is the last grief support class, I have to bring a picture of you. Going to be hard!!! I don't have many of you, that we are not in bathing suits, by the way still can't go to Crystal Beach. Write when I get back. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Maded it home.Getting ready to go listen to the keyboard player. I'm going to go by and see Meagan. I fit right in with all the people in Tyler. You would be proud of me. I'm telling you I could feel you in your mother's house. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Oh, baby, you could not guess what a wonderful time your sister had today, at the paint studio.... She is real good too. I miss you, I can feel you in this house, you are my love, not sure I will live long enough to get over you. Your brother is so sweet to me. I hear him talk, sounds like you. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Hey, baby, missing you something awful today. Timi is such a sweet girl, I think I need to help her. My heart goes out to her. Got to stop before I start crying. Timi and me are going to McKinney to paint tomorrow. She wants to do "Marilyn" with her dress blowing up. Can't wait to take her she'll have a ball. I'm in your mothers house writing you, I feel you. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Well, I'm in Tyler, using your brothers, Sammy's computer to write to you. I've been all over Tyler, with you sister, Timi. Having a ball, I sure wish you were here with me. We would be out of control. Your sister is ready to go again so I'll need to cut this short. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Well, a little better this morning, not much, but a little. I got a lot to do today, before I leave in the morning, to go to your sisters. Got to get my nails done, my pedi, I colored my hair last night and it dark, got to do something with that!huh Clean my car, gas it up, I dont know to much to think about now. I'm going away for Christmas and my birthday with a friend, dont think I can stay here, just to awful hard, no one should have to sufer like this, NO ONE!! I couldn't have done that much bad in my life time to desire this pain. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Totally heart broken today, need my group today, just can't get pass this. God needs to help me. Got to go, I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING!!!! I'll be better tomorrow.

Hey,Sweet Baby, missing you today. Got my new ring, the diamond butterfly for you, You would love it Going to ACTS tonight. Tomorrow going to Broussard's grief support, and Thursday to see Timi. Can't wait to see her. You think I'll get pass this pain, or just get used to pain & hurt? Still can't believe you left me. I think I'm in a dream and I'm going to wake up in your arms with you tell me everything going to be okay. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Well, didn't go to Beaumont yesterday, fixing to leave now, its 1:30pm. I really don't want to go home, but I guess I better. I bought 2 cute red chairs for the kitchen. You would love it I love you. I go to ACTS meeting tomorrow. I need to go home because I need to go to Dolly's and balance her bank account. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU. UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING AND MAYBE LONGER.

GOD ITS TO HARD!!!! Thanksgiving is hard can't imagine how hard Christmas going to be. Going shopping some more today then going back to Beaumont. I must be getting better, I'm going to go back and read the first messages I wrote to you and see if I can tell!!! But not today, I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, I WILL LOVE YOU, YOU WERE EVERYTHING, GOD I HOPE YOU KNEW THAT!!! LATER

Got to Houston Thursday at 7:30 pm, went shopping at 11:30 pm got back to Rene's at 6:30 am this morning. Got some shopping done, found lots of things you would have loved. Gosh, I love you!!! Next Thursday I'm going to Timi's. It's going to be a hard Christmas without you my love. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. YOU ARE EVERYTHING, I DO SO LOVE YOU!!!

Well today is Thanksgivings, and you were miss something awful. When to Monique's she did most of the cooking. She did great! There were 14 of us, you would have made my heart all happy and been # 15. Today was hard, but I'm sure there will be alot more bad days. Got to go write tomorrow. and REMEMBER, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND MISS YOU, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN AND UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. GOD I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Good Morning, migraine all evening and night, finally took enough stuff to get rid of it by 6:00am. Missed my grief support meeting last night, to sick. Gosh I'm going to miss you tomorrow, I love you and miss you. Going to see your sister next thursday, going to spend the night come home sunday. Got losts of work today, I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING!!!!!

Hey lover, your favorite cousin, Paula, called me yesterday, I didn't answer I have nothing to say to her, she is a piece of S**t. Talk to your sweet loving sister last night, I cried she cried, we all cried, I don't think God knew that taking you was going to cause so much pain. At my age I'm not sure I have a enough time left to get over you.

All my life i've made mistakes but something I'll never regret is meeting you!!! I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING AND MAYBE LONGER!!

Good morning, my sweet, I went to listen to the keyboard man yesterday. Saw this guy, he remind me of you so much I had to leave. I'm going to miss you so much Thursday, we could go to Paul's or Monique's. Gosh I'm going to miss you something awful. Got to go, I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Hey lover, I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU. UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Hey sweetie, Just finish the front flower bed. Looks Great. I'm going to start on the kitchen now, then our bedroom, black, white, and red.. You would love it too!! I'm a little tired and I want to start on the kitchen. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, OR MY HEART STOPS BEATING!!!!Your are the man

I dont know what I'm doing but this guestbook just cuts me off. I guess they think I talk to you enough.LOL I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH. UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Well, I met your friend Berie Alan, he though you were a pretty upstanding guy. I got 2 of his cd's. He signed them both, I think he was great. Didn't sleep last night, I broke a tooth had a tooth ache all night, my face is big and round this morning. When my boss comes in at noon I'm going home. Thank God for bad luck or I'ld have any luck at all.

Well, I'm going to see Bernie Allen tonight, wish you were going with me. We would have so much fun, You know you were my everything. I'm going with my friend Diane, I hope I can stay for the whole show. But she knows that I might not can. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.

I saw you pass away, Although I loved you dearly, I couldn't make you stay. A golden heart stopped beating, hard working hands at rest. God BROKE my heart to prove to me, he only takes the BEST. UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Today I believe is a little better. I know you are having the time of your life. Let me check......Yeap, you got your mother, your daddy, your little nephew, your cousin, Ricky, yea, I say your having a good time. To bad me and Timi are just sitting here and hurting, but buddy when we get there look out. LOL I love you so much, some times I wonder if I'm going to burst.....I LOVE YOU MY SWEET ONE, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.....

Went to grief support, cried the whole time, it must be the holidays coming up, this was going to be the first Christmas and Thanksgiving as husband and wife. It just ain't fair, I waited all my life for you. And you're gone in a minute. I LOVE YOU MY SWEET BABY, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING!!!! UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.

So depressed this morning I dont know what to do. I need to go get my medicine. At work, want to be home. Got grief sopport tonight. lBoy do I need it. God I miss you. If only I could touch your face one more time. UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER.

Well, didn't come home until this morning, took a muscle relaxer last night. I got home at 7:00 and when to bed and sleep until 12:00. I went and got some more stuff for the bedroom. I love and miss you. I'm Tired, I'll talk to you tomorrow. UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING, I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER. MY ONE AND ONLY.

The message cut me off. So, I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. WITH ALL MY SOUL AND HEART. Oh, yes, I'm going to start on my book again.

Well, took 2 sleeping pills last night and sleep great. I hope to day is better than yesterday. I watch 2 of the movies last night Rene's agrees it the best love story ever told. I love you for turning me on to them, can't wait to get home so I can watch the third one tonight. might go listen to the Jack the keyboard man tonight until about 9:00pm.

Gosh, It been a real hard day, I feel like I have cried all day long. Wayne's trying to beat me down, but I'm not going to let him. I know he's unhappy right now but he will get over it. I'm going to Tyler next weekend. See if I can start trouble there, maybe talk to Reggie, what you think? I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU WITH ALL MY HEART. UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.

Well, baby, looks like I'm going to have to quit my job at the CPA's office. I think I have had enough. I will work for myself and Hill's. You know I just about had enough of everything. I'm going to Houston, this evening, going to stay with Rene' and Buel, going to take the three Twilight movies. watch one after another. Should be a good old crying time, as Bella's says, "UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING." I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY SOUL AND HEART YOU WERE THE ONE AND ONLY!!!!!!

Hey, Sweet Baby, going shopping with Rene' and Buel this evening. Need my paint for the bedroom. Sick of working here, miss you!! When to sleep about 7:00pm last night, sleep all night well off and on. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING!!!!! I'll try to write more later. Oh yea, I'm going to see Bernie Allen, next Thursday, if you were here we would go together. Love

I am so tired of hurting, there's got to be a way. Do you think God will ever let me up. I looked all my life for you finally, got you and you were gone before I knew it, God not only took you. but I didn't get a chance to say Good Bye. You are my Soul Mate and always will be. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU LIKE THERE IS NO TOMORROW, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, THINK OF ME AND WAIT FOR ME!!!!!!

Hey, I hate the way things are. It is totally unfair. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN!!!!!!

LOVE YOU!!!! Thats a great way to start the day, and Baby I do love you. Going to Broussard's for grief support tonight. When to ACTS last nght at St Anthony's, thats going to be great for me, because I could use it. I think I'm going to see Timi weekend of the 19th. I got Eclipse it was wonderful, I laid in the bed to watch it The first time I have been in the bed since you passed. But couldn't sleep there yet. Got to go to work. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH, THINK OF ME UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. HOLDING YOU

Good morning my love, missed you last night. Went and listen to the keyboard man. It was good; got home about 8:30 or 9:00, ate some soup and tried to go to bed took 2 sleeping pills, still couldn't sleep, guess I'll sleep good tonight. Got lots of work to do write later, my love. Going to ACTS Retreat tonight. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH, I WANT YOU BACK, MY LOVE, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, I LOVE YOU!!!!

Well, didn't get the paint today, didn't get up until 4:00 pm, dont know why I sleep so much here lately. I got to do a Projected Statement for Hill's today, I'm going to work on it when I get through writting you. I'm going to liston to the Keyborard man. And have a couple of beers, that blows me to I never drank beer while you were alive. Don't know why, God's got so much explaining to do. ILOVE YOU MY LOVE ALL MY LIFE, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, I LOVE YOU!!

When shopping for somemore stuff for the bedroom and the yard in front. Rene' got here at 1:30 I was still asleep, I when to sleep at 10:30pm Friday, guess depression is sneaking in again. But doesnt last as long as it use to. I'm going to get the paint tomorrow to start on the bedroom. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU WITH ALL MY HEART. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN KNOW THAT YOU ARE STILL MY SOUL MATE.

My heart is empty this morning, I want you here with me. My chest feels like someone is sitting on it. Do you think I'm going to feel good again? Gosh, God help me with this problem, I have asked, I should recieve something from you. I guess today is just a bad day, to night Court and I are going to paint at Painting with a twist the painting is Breakfast at Tiffitys. I got all new stuff for my bedroom, its going to be black and white with red accents. Need to paint the walls, see if you were here you could do that for me, my little painter. Its been 4 months now I reallly need to get into my bedroom and quit sleeping on the couch. I'm going to try and get things ready to do that this weekend. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU LIKE YOU NEVER WOULD HAVE THOUGHT!!! I just didn't think you were going to be my everything in the beginning. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, I WILL LOVE YOU FOR EVER!!!

Hey, good morning, I must have said something I wasn't suppose to because yesterday's message isn't on here. I got to watch that, have no idea what I said. All I ever says is I love you and miss you, and don't know why God took you away, I'll never figure that one out. He took my soul and my soul mate. Sometimes the pain in my chest is unreal. MISS YOU BABY, AND LOVE YOU MORE THAN I CAN EVER TELL YOU, MAY GOD HOLD YOU IN HIS ARMS UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.

My dear love, last night was hard, but I made it. I miss you so much I just dont know what to do. Oh well, the city of beaumont just showed up at my job to tell me they are cutting off the water, that's lovely. Come on God, enough is enough. I llike my clients, its my boss that is the problem. I'm going to Nacol's at lunch today, to help Renee to balance her books. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU WITH ALL MY LOVE, PLEASE HELP ME, I NEED YOU SO, CAN'T HARDLY WAIT UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN!!! SWEET BABY

Love you, Sweetie, missing you, but I'm going to a painting class friday, going to paint the first picture to go into my bedroom. Then I'm going to the Woodlands at the end of the month to do another. Trying to keep business. Talk to Timi yesterday, paid her phone to keep it where I can get her when I want her. She says she's come to start over we will see. Tonight is grief support at Broussards, last night was ACTS class that I'm on team for in February,2011. Just got back from voting. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, MY LOVE UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, I WILL ALWAYS HAVE YOU IN MY HEART.

Good morning, lover. I know I haven't written in a couple of days but that don't mean you haven't been on my mind the whole time. I told my friend Marty before he died to tell you I still love you as much if not more than I did before you left. You will like Marty he lived life to the fullest, just like you did, but he never met his soul mate like you did in the end. I got that empty feeling in my soul today. Gosh I love you, you were the man!! I LOVE YOU MY LOVE FOREVER UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, HOLD ME IN YOUR ARMS.

Hi Sunshine, missing you this morning, but nothing new I miss you every morning. Gosh, how can anyone LOVE someone so much in such a fairly short time? You were my Soul Mate, thats for sure. Going to Marty's visitation today, hope I can hold up to it. Since you passed I no longer go home down Major, can't stand to pass Broussard's, so now I go home down Dowlen, that's got to be weird. Going to work I LOVE AND MISS YOU, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN KNOW YOU ARE LOVED BY ME, UNCONDITIONLY.

Loving you this morning, wanted to wake up to you this morning, but I guess that won't happen no more. I love you! I'm so afraid that when we meet again, you won't love me with the passion you love me here. All I can do is hope and have faith. "No one can promise they'll never hurt you cuz at one time or another, it will happen. The real promise is if the time you spend together will be worth the pain." And baby you are well worth the pain. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, WAIT FOR ME.

Good Morning, sweet baby, had a rough time at grief support last night.Just couldn't stop crying. My friend Marty Rutherford died last night a little after 11:00pm. He is going to be at Broussard's on McFaddin, I'm so glad he is not at Major. What is wrong with me, all my friends and love ones are dying. God, I have had enough. I'm going to painting class now it is so much fun, I think you would have had a ball with me. And I can paint a little. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU WITH ALL MY SOUL AND HEART, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, YOU ARE MY HEART BEAT!!

Hey, are you missing me like I'm missing you? Talked to Timi well not talk texted. I hope she come down to stay with me I need to help her, she's missing you something awful, too. I want to get her into counseling and get a job and start her life all over again. I need to help someone, Timi, Meagan, Sandy some one. I have to think you died because I'm suppose to help someone, if I didn't think that I would go nuts. I want to see Timi come around, she loved you so much. I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.

Gosh, today is hard, I love you so. I miss you so much I hardly can breathe. The pain in my chest is unreal. Will this every stop? I walk around with tears in my eyes most of the time. It just isn't fair. You were so good and loving to me, I'll never ever get over you. I hope God knows what he has done to me by taking you so soon. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, I WILL REMEMBER YOU FOR EVER.

Hi sweeti baby, Sitting at home do nothing but thinking about you. Going to Monique's grandpa's birthday, tomorrow, he is 96 and good health. Doing nothing to day but relaxing;. I LOVE AND MISS YOU MY LOVE, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, REMEMBER ME

Good morning Sunshine, I sure miss that wonderful smile of yours. And those eyes, I could get lost in. I miss you so much. You think things will get better for me? I hope so. Gosh, somedays I dont know what to do without you, and others aren't so bad, I just want the good to out weight the bad, but that might not come until we meet again. Oh, you should see my butterfly in my ear, it is fine, and its all for you, the tattoo in the ear is for me, the butterfly is for you, and only you. Getting caught up, thank God. Got to go to work, I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SOMETHING AWFUL, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, REMEMBER ME.

Mr Travis Lee Meadows, I look great this morning, wish you could see me. Cute as a button!!! Dress is a little short but you would have liked it. I'm ready to meet you again, Think I can find another one of you down here? Oh, well, I'll just wait until we meet again, it shouldn't be that long, I can wait for you, my love. You were everything, your love made my life complete!!! Got to go cant start crying, mess up my makeup. Just remember, I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, WAIT FOR ME.

Good morning, didn't get home until 1:30 this morning, after we got thru at the tatoo place we went and ate. Of course, I couldn't hold anything down, don't know how I'm gaining weight; it all comes up. I want you to know that I love my butterfly, its outstanding, I think, don't know how anybody else is going to think, really don't care what they think. I hope to get some what caught up after this weekend, so I can go to McAllen next weekend. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SOMETHING AWFUL, JUST WISH I COULD TOUCH YOUR FACE UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN!

Hey Im waiting at the tattoo place for Courtney and Mike, I got a butterfly in my ear for you. Didn't get to write last night because I went to work at 8;30am til 11:30pm. So tired this morning. Went to Broussard's grief support classes tonight, I enjoyed the class. I'm to tired to write any more. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, REMEMBER ME AND I'LL REMEMBER YOU, MY LOVE

Well, today is no better, slept late, I do that to keep from facing the day. Thats silly, I still have to get up at some point. I'm not sure when I'm going to go to McAllen this Wednesday or next Wednesday. I just want to go to get out of here. Gosh, I miss you. Going to the Beach; would be great if you were here, but your not. Got to go, Please know that I love you and miss you something awful, you are my heart and life. And you are gone. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN!!

Hey, I went shopping today, got some shirts and sleep pants for Shelby. I miss you something awful today, maybe tomorrow will be better. My friend from McAllen is sending me a ticket to fly down and see her. My classes start Monday and Tuesday, I'm really looking forward to them. Bad day got to go, LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN I LOVE YOU FOR EVERY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just found out about Lee and I wanted to let his love ones know how deeply sorry I am for your lose. I have not seen Lee in a long time but he was a great friend who I have a lot of great memories of and I will always remember. Take care of each other and God Bless.

Good Morning, Sunshine, I love you this morning. Worked until 12:30 last night, I'm glad today is the 15th. I'm going to take Monique to Nacol's and get her diamond braclet sized. I'll talk to you more tonight, I LOVE AND MISS YOU. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, WAIT FOR ME BABY, I DO LOVE YOU SO.

Well, sweet I wrote you this morning, I dont know If I said something I should've or it didn't show because my computer acted up while I was writing you and It did record. But I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, WAIT FOR ME, MY LOVE

I was and am very saddened by the death of Lee I just fiound out yesterday. I have been friends with Lee 30 years or more my Heart and Prayers go out to all of the friends and family. Tony Stegall

Good morning, my love. I worked late last night, didnt get much sleep, but if I can just get caught up or some help, help with the work and help with the pain. I dont know what else to do to get rid of this pain, and emptiness, this nothing feeling is in side of me. I'm hoping all the classes will help me and I just got to put one foot in front of the other. I just want to find out why God took you from me, I just can't let it go. Poor Courtney says "I'm sorry Mom that we didn't get that baby thing going, because you could have something of Lee's forever, instead of being for Lee It could have been for you." I wanted to donate your eyes, so maybe one day I could be walking down the street and see those beautiful get losing in eyes. Well I have talked to much today. KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS WILL, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, WAIT FOR ME, MY LOVE!!

Hey, not a good day, maybe it will get better. I'm going to start classes at St Anthony's on Monday nights and Broussard's on Tuesday nights and Licensed Counselor on Wednesdays, you know this is pitiful that I fell in Love with you had the best time of my life, God takes you and I'm left with this pain I can't get rid of. I guess you were worth it, you were MY SOUL MATE, MY LIFE. I WILL LOVE YOU FOR EVERY, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. Talk to you later PIGY!! ROOT ROOT LOL I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, MY LOVE.

Hey sweetie, today started bad, but its a little bit better now. I have to be careful what I say to you, so its not missed understood what I am saying. I can't wait for Broussard's classes to start. I LOVE YOU MORE EVERYDAY, MISS YOU TOO!!! UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, REMEMBER ME.

Miss me yesterday, I missed you. Slept late and then went to see a friend. Had too much to drink so I didn't write when I got home. Was suppose to work Saturday and Sunday, worked none!!!!
I miss you so much, I'm going to watch a friend play the keyboard and drink a few beers.

Bad Day, already having a crying fit. I'm sick of this God need to give me some relief. Did I tell you that when we went to the beach we caught the camper a fire. Burned the sink out of it. LOL Make people want to loan you their stuff. LOL Can't talk no more just not a good day. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, AND WANT TO BE WITH YOU NOW!!!!

I love you!!!! Donna sent me some pictures of us when we went out that time we went to Singles Club in Nederland. You and I are dancing in one, kissing in one, and laughing in another. Of course, I had to take a couple of hours off to just cry. Gosh, I don't know if I will ever get over you. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.

hey I must be getting a little better, because I wrote you Monday and it didn't show up, a couple months ago I did that and I had a fit. LOL Went on the bus trip with Broussard's and it was alot of fun, Shelby loved it to. Kim was wonderful!! I got upset once and Shelby said now Maw-Maw, Lee wouldn't like this. The trip was interesting and fun..... I can't wait until the spring trip. Donna called me today but I told her I couldn't talk. She said she would call back. Shelby wants me to take her home. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, WAIT FOR ME!!!!!

Good morning Sunshine, I love you and miss you. Talk to Donna some more and Dana. Timi maybe acting up, you need to get to her, you know you can. Tomorrow, Shelby and me are going on our trip with Broussards, Shelby just loves horses, wants me to buy her another one since Molley died, looks like everything arounds us dies. Working pretty hard, trying to get caught up. No crying so far this morning. But if I write to long I will be so I'm going to let you go. Know that I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN!!

Hey, did you miss me, went to McFaddin beach and my phone wouldn't work. I think thats the first day I've missed talking to you in 3 months. Couldn't wait to get home to talk to you. I had a good time, no pressure, no stress.. Maybe soon I'll be able to go to crystal beach right now to many memories. I finally got Donna to call me back. Donna said Paula gave you the soma, but I already knew that. I've got a ton of washing to do from the beach. I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH & MISSING YOU SOMETHING AWFUL. TILL WE MEET AGAIN.

Oh, I didn't sleep good last night, slept with Parker, he's a pig too. LOL Got some work done yesterday, need to get more done. Had to recharge your sisters phone this morning, gosh I hope she gets it together. Today is not as good as the last two days were. Donna called me this morning going to send me some pictures of you and me, that she has. I can't wait to get them. Got that empty feeling this morning, got to go to work. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SOMETHING AWEFUL, SEE YOU SOON.

Good morning my love, Had another pretty good day yesterday, I guess the bottom is going to drop any minute. Hope to get a lot more work done today. Going to keep Monique's kids tonight. Can't wait its been so long since I've done that. Peyton is getting so beautiful, just like her mother. and Parker. Well he's just my little man, to sweet for words,but the older he gets the less he wants you to kiss him. That will change. I talked to your sister yesterday, she may be coming here. I'm going to put her in counseling, get her a job and maybe we can help each other with the loss of you. What do we have to lose? She doesn't want anybody to know, if she comings. You know her. Got to get some work done I LOVE YOU MORE AND MORE EVERYDAY, I JUST WANT TO WAKE UP AND FIND OUT THIS WAS A DREAM(NIGHTMARE). CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU, MY LOVE!!!

Hey, baby, my day was good yesterday, got a lot of work done still have a lot to do. Courtney just loves driving that red car, she is taking very good care of it. I can tell it I see her coming down the highway, how many red Miata with smashed rear end do you think there are? LOL I go to my counselor today. I texted your sister yesterday, she was having a very bad day, I'm worried about her, she needs to come down here and stay with me, we could help each other. I sent her a picture of you and said " What would he tell you to do?" Didn't hear back from her, If I dont hear from her by Monday, I might go to Tyler to see if I can find her. I want her to come here dry out, get in counseling with me, and start her life over, and I know she can do it. You think you and God can help me with this. I know God can, but do you think he will? I can't hardly help myself, maybe we can help each other. Got to go to work. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU MY LOVE, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, SOON???

Good morning, Sunshine!! Sure wish I could have got up with you this morning. Oh,well. I'm going to work hard today so I can go to the beach with Courtney this weekend. This will be the first time I have gone down there since you died. I hope its a good experience and not a bad one! I dont need anything else to go bad. I just dont know who is going to take me to the third sand bar, to fish for shark. God, God, I miss you so much, when will this stop???? God it dont seem fair, I finally found someone that liked what I liked, laugh at what I laugh at, wanted to do things in the future that I wanted to do, and YOU TAKE HIM!!!Don't see the fairness in it. Got to go, Lee. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. WAIT FOR ME!!

Slept all day Sunday, didn't get up until 5:00pm went back to sleep at 11:00pm got up today at 7:30am, shouldn't be to tired but I am. My mother called me yesterday, I'm going to see her Tuesday at lunch. She's lonely too. Heart hurts today, I wish I could get mad at you for leaving me, but all I can do is CRY. Got to get to work, I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, TIL WE MEET AGAIN.

Had a okay time with Courtney and Mike. Just dont seem able to have a good time since you left. I cant wait to go to the grief support class at Broussard's. I have to find something to help me through this. I'm so sorry you didnt get to meet Monique. I should have told her about you, like you told me to. I thought I knew best, but I didn't. Sorry! I miss you so much. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART, HOPE WE MEET AGAIN SOON.

Well, I worked today, got Dolly caught up, I'm, getting ready to meet Courtney & Mike at Cotton's tonight. Had a good time at Paint with a Twist, founded some pictures I want to paint and put in my bedroom, I think if I change it I will be able to sleep in there, since I haven't been able since you left me. I know you didnt leave me because you want to or I hope you didn't. I'm so confused I dont know what's what!!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND MISS YOU. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, WAIT FOR ME.

Hey, Hope you are having fun, because I'm not. I think God played a dirty trick on me, by giving you to me and taking you away. I'm going to a paint class with Monique this evening. Spent the night with Courtney last night. Lost my keys, made my brother mad because I made him get up at 6:00am to open the door. Then I laid on the couch and when back to sleep, got up 10 minutes before I was due at work. I let Courtney have the red car to drive until December, hopefully I can get it fix then. You would think with as much as I have to do, I wouldnt have so much heartache, but I do. Got to go do a payroll, talk tomorrow. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH, I'M READY TO MEET WITH YOU!!!

I almost didnt write you today, went and got my Meadows dot redone, this time they put a crystal in instead of a silver ball you know how I don't like silver. I have ordered my gold butterfly. I can't seem to get Donna to call me back might have to go to Tyler, because she is going to talk to me one way or the other. I got lots of work done today, had lunch with a friend. She is going to work for me tomorrow and do a little filing and make folders for me. I feel so lonely inside. I keep hoping God is going to fix my broken heart. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, I HOPE I MAKE IT. HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON.

Made it thru class today, I could have skipped this class didnt have anything I really could use a lot of. So, I started writing about you and me in the class by hand, will put it on the computer and put it in the right order. I just wrote out of order, not date order. I got to get some work done I'm at work now, then I have to go see about my Meadows dot, the stud fell out & the hole closed in the back, guess need to get it redone. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON.

Gosh, today has been busy. I had a class on excel today from 8:30 am until 4:30pm. and I have another tomorrow. I got a text from Timi today. She called me Flossie and the tears flowed. The class just looked. No one has called me that since you died. An old friend, Marilynn, not really an old friend but a niece of my first husband, called me yesterday and we talked about you and she thinks I should try to write a book, she thinks the cover should be a picture of the pink pig. And I'm considering it. She says its the greatest love story she has heard in years. I left class, went to the mall got my nails done and a pedicure, stopped by work to do a few things and then home. LOVE YOU AND WILL TALK TOMORROW, MY LOVE. HOPE TO SEE YOU REAL SOON.

Hey, God I missing you this morning, got up at 4:00 am to go to see a clients. Gosh, wish you were here. I miss you so much, I can't wait until the hurting stops, think it ever will? You know I really didn't want to date you, much less get this hung up. But I would do it all over again, knowing the out come!!! You gave me that much in the short time we were together. MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN,

Well, I would say good morning, but I slept today til 7:00pm. I think thats about 17 hours, But I didn't hurt. I guess if the pain gets to bad I can always go to sleep. But I have to get up and the heart starts again. Can't wait to see you. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, YOU ARE MY SOUL MATE.!!!!

Hi baby, I was busy working to day trying to get caught up. Shelby is going with me on the trip with Broussard's. She misses you also. I try to stay busy doing something all the times. Today was Good. But I still miss you;.I love you so much. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, You are my one and only. I'm ready!

Oh, I'm tired. My heart is heavy today. I just want to cry, out loud. I feel if I could do that maybe I could get some relief. But today is Peyton's party, so I will get happy on the outside. I just dont understand why, why me, why you, why us. Got to get to work this is way to hard today, I want to be with YOU why does God not know this. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, MY LOVE.

Good morning, Sunshine, when I open this guestbook, I see your beautiful smile and those eyes that I can get lost in. Peyton is having her birthday party friday evening. I talked to Monique last night and had a good talk. I hope she forgives me. Im still trying to get caught up on my work here at the office. I didnt work 3 weeks after you died, and since then I come to work every day; I just dont do anything, or cant get my mind going. Going to try today. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, THINKING OF YOU ALWAYS. TIL WE MEET AGAIN.

Good morning, late to work today, had to many marqaritas. Mark called me, Shelby's horse Molly died. I cant seem to get all my work done having problems balancing books, Cant stop thinking about you. I miss you so much. I'm ready to be with you, but I can't leave Shelby, yet. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH. I pray God will help me. Til we meet again.

Hi, cant believe I didnt write you yesterday. Today is Monique's Birthday, she is 32 years old and thats my baby. Shelby's horse is down Mark is gone to see if he can get her up, she's old. I told Courtney she would have to tell her if any thing happens to that horse, I cant deal with myself much less her little broken heart. In two weeks, Courtney and Mike are taken me to the beach to fish, thats going to be hard without you there. OH Oh, that hurt my heart!! I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN!!!!!YOU ARE MY SOUL MATE, MY LOVE.

Hey, Sweet Baby, I guess you thought I wasn't going to write today, you should know better. I think Shelby and me are going on the trip with Broussard's. Gosh, I miss you a bunch!! I've been busy today, trying to get caught up on my work. I had lunch with Renee Nacol and she thinks I need to quit digging,too. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH IT HURTS. TIL WE MEET AGAIN AND I HOPE THATS SOON OR I GET SOME ANSWERS.

Back from Houston, going to do some work, then about 6:30pm I'm going to listen to the guy play the keyboard. Got a lot of work next week. I forgot my medicine at home so I didnt take it for 2 days Im alittle depressed to day hope it get better tomorrow. I dont want to talk to much too depressed. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. YOU ARE MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today is Saturday, I'm in Houston at Rene' and Buel, Buel when to work and Rene' & me talked about you. Well, she talked I CRY. I'm doing a lot of looking in to your life, she don't like that, oH well. We are going to go shop, I need stuff for my bedroom so I can sleep there again, not the couch and the front yard. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON.

You know I keep thinking that this is a bad dream and I'm going to awaken with your arms around me hearing you whisper that everything will be okay. I LOVE YOU, BABY

Well, I'm writing you tonight because Triston call me tonight to invite me to Evadale at his school for breakfast for Grandparent day. I have to pick him up at 7:00 so I have to get up at 5:00. Today went pretty good. Sometimes I'll be just going down the street and I get this feeling of total lost, because you are not here. But its a little better. Then I get to you, you are going to be sorry that you left me. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, PLEASE WAIT FOR ME, MY LOVE

Good morning my love. Went to the counselor today, made 3 steps forward and 2 back. Boy, I bet you are sick of this, I just wish I had some answers. Yesterday wasn't to bad maybe today will get better. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. GOD HELP ME!!!

Well, went to the counselor yesterday and the appointment is today. Went to Grief support at Broussard's last night, I think this might work for me we'll have to wait and see. I think I got more done yesterday, than I have in the past month. My client, Dolly, said I was in a good mood, and full of joy..There were people at Support that had lost their husbands 3 months ago, they sure looked in better shape than me. Got lots of work to get done. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. Oh yea, I found a bumper for the red car and I found a bright yellow car in Baton Rouge for 2500.00 only thing no a/c no radio, radio I can get not sure about a/c. Keep looking. Love you!! Talk tomorrow.

Good Morning, Sweet Baby, I'm feeling pretty good today. I'm suppose to get some Royalties off my house and the oil wells in Amelia. The house next to me got a couple of thousand I dont know if I will get that much but any amount will help. I go to the counselor today at 1:00 and to the Grief support at Broussards tonight. Every since I screamed at God and told Him to take this pain, its been a llittle better not a lot but a little. I still LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. GOSH, I wish you new I was writing every day, I do Love you so. Got to go before I start Crying, I didn't know I could cry so much.

Well, I went to Squeeze's last night, got home about 8:30pm, the guy plays good you would love it, your kind of music. Today is hard, my chest feels like its being mashed to pieces, God when will I be free of this pain. I know you are doing great in heaven with God. Its the best place for you, I just don't know why I can't except it and move on. I LOVE YOU, MY LOVE TIL ME MEET AGAIN.

Well, I think I'm going to Squeeze's and listen to the guy play the key board. Gosh, I'm just so lonely, my love, you know I go 2 steps forward and then 3 steps back. I'm asking God to help me. I'm askiing him to take this pain. Miss you and always will.

I saw my friend my friend Pam Horka today, she thought you were cute. I'm so sorry you never got to meet some of my friends. I just tried to keep you all to my self. Gosh, I miss you. Are you sick of hearing that?
Well if you are you should have stayed here with me. I know GOD will tell me one of these day. Love you, my love.

When and drank a couple beers with one of your friends last night. I'm going to start going to some grief meeting with Broussard's. God Lee I just dont know what to do any more. I sure hope they help cause I could use the help. Not good today. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU!!!! Hope we meet soon.

My heart, just aches this morning. Do you think I'm every going to get thru this. I'm lonely, I want to cry. I just want to be in your arms. Why Lee Why did you have to leave me, life is not fair. I'll just put one foot in front of the other I guess, but I'm tired. LOVE YOU

Good morning, I think your sister is coming down this weekend. You know what I dont have that hurting in side like someone cut me open as much as I use to. I just feel lost, dont know what to do next, empty just empty inside. I hope you are are having a ball, I guess you are, your mother, your daddy and Timi's little boy are there with you. You know when I meet you I had no idea that I was going to Love you so much, never plan on that. I always will, I always do, I miss you my love. Lets hope I make it to you, wait for me, dont every stop loving me.

Good morning, my love, Gosh I MISS YOU. I feel like I cant make it no more, Why did God do this to me he knew I LOVE YOU SO. I know he cant change it back, but I could come be with you. You know I spend all my life looking for you, I guess 6 months was better than none? Bad day, I guess I won't depress you, Later

Well got up crying this morning, but not for long, I got myself together and got to work, I think I'm going to talk to someone who lost her son. Maybe I can get som relief from her. We will just have to see, I know If I dont get some of this work done I'm going to be in deep S**T. I love you we will talk later, you know it would be a whole lot easier if you had a phone in heaven, Really I dont know how you are making it without one, you called everybody you know first thing in the morning. LOL Miss you!!!

Well, I just got home after the benefit, Richy Marshell. Your friend Scott Shaver treated me like I was his best friend.
What's his problem. I felt sorry for him. My friend Emily says I have to get over this. I try It doesnt do any good. I going by the funeral home for classes. I got to do something.

Well just got back from the benefit, Julie didnot work as hard on it as she did her cuz. I had two of your friends wanted to be friends with me Scott and cant rememberv the other one he painted with you. I cut Carla and Paula off my facebook. They make me sick, I'm going in the morning.l Scott will be there. Can I see the butterfy??LOVE YOU

Today is your dad's benefit and tomorrow is Ricky's. I hope you are with me today, because I'm going to need you. Mike is working on the red car because I'm taking it to the benefit.l I feel empty today, no feeling at all. Maybe i'll write somemore this evening. I LOVE AND MISS YOU, MY LOVE!!!!! LATER

Good morning Sweet Baby, yesterday was pretty good, now this morning started off bad, with a crying fit. Sometimes Im not crying because I miss you the person that I lost. It's the hole you left in my life feels like a piece of glass cutting me open........ You think it will be long before I can join you? I can't wait to see those beautiful eyes, that I can get lost in. I LOVE & MISS YOU. You were my WORLD and MY SOUL MATE. Later

Hey there, yesterday was not to bad until the evening. I text Paula about you and she call back in a fit. I talk to her about you for an hour and I cried for an hour. I hope after this benefit for your dad is over I will be able to get some relief or maybe not. I'm trying to get caught up on my work, not doing a good job of it. Courtney is now a full time student at Lamar. She said in Hi School she was the youngest in her classes, now she says she's hoping shes not the oldest. LOL I do LOVE YOU SO. Talk to you tomorrow. You know soon I will have to stop this writing if I'm ever going to move on, but I cant right now. I think I'll start a journal, but you see I want people to know how much I truely loved you. You were my life and I'm not ever going to forget you. Later

Yesterday and last night was awful. I dont know what I'm going to do, I just cant get pass this pain and empty feeling. You would think God would help me a little more or maybe it not God maybe its me not wanting to let go, I know I cant go on like this for much longer. I'm trying hard to hold on for Shelby. If it wasnt for Shelby!! Maybe today will be good or fair. Its going on 8 weeks there should be some relief or maybe there is I just dont feel it. LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER . My heart is broken. Maybe someday God will tell me why such a short time and so much love. I wish he would have waited until after our wedding. I would love to be a Meadows!!!! later my love

Yesterday when good, just cried a little, when to counselor back on once a week. I dont think I told you but I called Steve Little on your birthday, hope you didnt mind. But I need to talk to someone that Love you as much as I did. Im going around to shops trying to get things to auction off for the benefit. I hope today goes good. I LOVE AND MISS YOU, HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON!!!!!!!!!!

As you could tell yesterday was bad. Hopely Monday will be better. Got a text from Timi, Cant wait until Saturday when I can See her. Your Dad's Benefit is then.I hope I lose some weight so my pants will fit. Im so lonely for you, they keep telling me its going to get better, but it dont. I decide not to fix the Miata, because the car maybe to dangerous for a 16 year old. Im think about buying your truck for her. Got work to do write later, LOVE U !!!!!LATER

Hey, Sweetie, when to Wildwood this morning to get a chain saw so I can work in the flower bed tomorrow. Got to go to a ACTS retreat tonight. Your friends from High Island are at Sandy's today, they went Canoe riding, if you were here we could have gone. Gosh, I miss you so much. You know if I knew that there was passion in heaven I might could get alone better, but knowing that there more than likely not, Im having a hard time. Maybe there is something better. GOD WHY YOU TAKE MY LEE????? LOVE YOU LEE, LATER!!!!

When to go get Meagan this morning so I can take her to her counselor at 11:00 today. I cut all the bush down in front of the house last night going to make a new flower bed. Im going to take your autopsy to my friend that is a doctor so she can explain it to. I got a birthday party for a great Niece Jordon tonight. If you were here you could go with me and meet the other side of my family. I got a lot of work to catch up on, have not done much since you left. I LOVE YOU FOREVER, MY LOVE. LATER!!!!

Good morning my love, my lip is big this morning, I sure dont need my lips done. I talk to Timi yesterday. I dont think she is mad at me any more about openning your autopsy. Meagan and me when shopping yesterday and I took her to work. She is a good kid and I love her. She misses you too. Got to go to work, Love you my love. LATER

Hey, baby, well I got your intials under the pig!!LOL I also got a semi Meadows Dot, my dot is with a piercing after it heals I will replace stud with a diamond. You would love it. Some of the days are getting alittle better, at least I dont cry all the time just some of the time. Since I got the intials done and the dot, I have nothing to do to keep you near, might get hard again for a while. I LOVE YOU MUCH AND MISS YOU MUCH. AND WANT TO SEE YOU SOON, SOON SOON!!!GOD WHY LEE? He was my life!! Later my love

Well, I made it through your Birthday Sunday; I put six long stem yellow roses in the pond for you. One for each month we were together. I got your autopsy back from the sheriff's department. Monday was suppose to be our Wedding Day. I will LOVE YOU FOREVER and I DO.

Love you

Well, Lee Meadows, I dont know what to do, Im driving my brother crazy and my kids are worried sick over me. My counselor went from once a week to every three days. I just cant get over you dying. Im not sure this writing to you every day is good for me. We had so many plans, but I know you are in a better place, but I just cant let go. MISS YOU SO TERRIBLE MUCH AND LOVE YOU. Later my love!

Well, went to counselor today go back Monday. A tough weekend coming up, Your Birthday is Sunday and we were getting married Monday, what a hell of a week. I miss you and love you. I know you are in heaven with God but I sure could use you down here on earth.

You know you told me your mother told you water was going to get you one day and it did. Also, you were going to go before me and you did. You said you loved me forever and I hope you do. God, I miss you.

Well, baby, looks like Im not going to Colorado, no tubing down the Colorado River, Me & you. But when I go I'll take you with me. LOVE YOU TILL THE END!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

When to Pauls last night. He help me with my new laptop computer. Stop and saw a friend, Diane, we are going to eat crab at Delta Downs Friday before I leave for Colorado. Gosh, I miss you, have not hear from Timi since Friday, not sure what she is up to. No telling. Love and miss you.

When to Squeeze's last night to hear the guy play the keyboard. Also when motorcycle riding without a helmet that was stupid. Gosh I miss you. LOVE YOU!!

Yes, me and you are going tubing down the Colorado River, If its pretty enought I might leave a little of you. You will go ever I go. Last night we went and to hear the Cadillac's play, not all of them were there. Met a old school friend there, I dont know if you knew him, Joe Hillman. I got home about 10.
I LOVE YOU,BABY...... YOU ARE EVERYTHING!!!!!

Still going to the counselor, she said I needed to take a trip, she told me that Thursday and Friday a friend told me her sister backed out of a trip to Co. all paid . So Im going taking you with me. Loving you always. Hope to see you soon.

Hey, Sweetie, I'm trying so hard to make it without you. My chest aches, my head hurts. I just want to be with you. Oh, God why you? Please Lee help me. I LOVE you with all my heart and soul. As you can tell not a good day. LOVE & MISS you.

I go to the counselor today,its been 5 weeks, dont seen to get any better. Your sister, Timi, has been staying with me for about 3 days, going to get your death certificate tomorrow,
maybe. I got a lot of work to do, just dont have the heart to do it. I dont understand how come more people dont follow their mates to the other side, it would be so easy. Except you might not get to go to heaven. I miss you so much it is unbeliveable.
I hope we get to meet again with the same love and passion as we had before. I LOVE YOU So.

Oh God, Why does it hurt so much. Why does people want to take what we had. I will never forget you. or stop loving you!! You have got to help me Lee. I LOVE YOU. Dont leave me here alone to hurt, do something!!!

Today is your dad's funeral. Your sister, Timi is here, havent seen her yet cant wait. Gosh, I wish we had more time together, I think we could do all the things you want to do. Loving you made my life worth living, I have loved before, but not like this, I so hope it was not in vain. Missing you!!!

Your dad's funeral is at 1:00pm Tues. the 3rd. I'll be there I told you I would. Ask your dad for the ring, I send it with him couldnt take it a way from him. I didnt want it back, you did so you discuss that with him now. I'm trying to get that shirt you had on the night we left everybody at Julies' birthday party, to keep and hold. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

when to your dad's today was not a good thing. Had to tell Aunt Betty how I felt about things. Took Meagan to get a pedicure and to eat at Crazy Jose's in Lumberton. Got to go to work in the morning about 5. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON.

Your Dad die tonight, you should already know now. Was it great to see him? I wish it was me. I LOVE YOU

Went to see your dad and Meagan yesterday. Going to pick up Meagan Sunday and do something with her. Dont know what but something. Going to go put some flowers at the pond this evening for you. LOVE YOU SO MUCH

Went to the counselor today, she wants to see me next Thursday. I guess in time I will be able to say your name and not cry. I just dont want to let go of you. You were everything to me, for that time and I love you dearly.

Gosh, I wish you're here just one more day. I love and miss you. I dont need to tell you anything you knew I loved you I just want you to hold me and tell me you love me again. not that you didnt tell me a hundred million times. Just to hear your voice. You know I call your cell phone so I can hear your voice. Silly Hun? Love you talk tomorrow.

Well today is a llittle better than the last three. Still miss you something awful, the emply feelilng in my chest is unbearable sometimes. I miss you and love you so much.Till we meet again!!!!!!!

Another bad day, LOVE YOU

I have had 2 bad days, I miss you so much and nobody knows you like I did. They dont understand how you wanted a new life with me. I hope things can feel the same when we meet again.
With all my love!!!!!!

Gosh, I miss you so much. I wish I could look into those beautiful eyes of yours and get lost. I'm going to find out what happen and someone is going to hurt beside me. I LOVE YOU!!!!

Every morning when I open Broussard's, I see your smiling face and only God knows how much I miss you. Today would not be soon enough to see you again. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi Baby, got my divorce today. Name goes from Nancy Thompson to Nancy Holley. I miss you so much!!! Cant wait until I'm with you again. Love you!!!!

Hey, Mr Wonderful, at least I thought so. Still missing you, and your sister where ever she is, in trouble. LOL See you soon.

I never really met Lee, but I did not have too in order to realize the man he is. I knew how he is from the happiness he put back into my momma's life, and the smile he put back on her face.

Well, now you got my daughter and granddaughter falling in love with you. Thinking you are the THING! Maybe we need to go back to the three times a week and someone else do the cooking and washing. LOL I love you

Lee all I got to say is that u r some kind of man. y u ask? because not only did u win my mama's undieing love but u won my daughter's also. it takes a great man to win one of those two and hunnie it took U to win both at the same time. I know that will never be accomplished again in this life time or any other! I didn't get the chance to have gotten to know u like they did but what time I had will always be remembered. Like my favorite movie says "I'd rather have 15 min of wonderful than a life time of nothing"! Thank you for showing my "mudda" how love can be refreshing, wonderful, happy and everlasting again. Love always, Court

Well, you got that little lady, you were so easy to love. Miss you Baby.

I miss you soo much already Paw-Paw Lee I wish the good lord hadn't taken you away from me so soon.. I don't know what I will do without you there to show me how to find those shark teeth.. But I guess it won't be so bad.. They say it gets easier over time but I don't think so.. Im gonna go catch a red fish just for you Paw-Paw Lee..

I LOVE AND MISS YOU SOO MUCH!!

Another day, and I'm still loving You. Just cant wait until I can see you again, I lOVE YOU

Hey,can I borrow 50 cents I need 2 call heaven and thank God 4 bringing u in 2 my life. Loving you always

You will be dearly missed, so sorry! They say the GOOD DIE YOUNG! I want to send my condolences to you're family!!!P.s. I know you're in Heaven, so hug my mom(you're cousin ) for me and send much LOVE!Y'all will have more fun now,than ever....GOD BLESS AND WATCH OVER OUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS!

You will never know true happiness until you have truly loved and you will never understand what pain really is until you have lost that true love to death! You will be truley missed and there always will be a huge place in my heart that you will reside always and forever! I love you! May you rest in peace my friend!

They say as time goes by things get better, well it dont I think today is hard than the 7th was!! I miss you so much, I just cant wait to see you again. When you said I was your soul mate I believe you. I'm ready to meet you again, there is nothing left here on earth I want to do. But see you again!!!!!
Later!!!

Lee was a dear friend of mine that always had a smile on his face for everyone. I haven't seen him for several years but he will be missed. May God be with you Timi, Sammy and Toni and Snookie.

Well, brother-in-law, you sure took us by surprise. They say only the good die young and you are proof of that. You were one of the finest most loving men I have ever known. Thank God I know you are in heaven. Only that lessens my sorrow. You were so much to so many. To me, you were a friend and a brother. How did you always find time to call and check on me and the kids and all the other people you checked on everyday? To my children and grandchildren you were the favorite uncle who always thought of the neat little things kids love... maybe because at heart you were still a kid. Maybe you got the best of the deal, brother. You lived large and loved large. We will do our best to take care of each other and stay close to each other, but your were always the one who pulled us close and made us like it. No one can fill your shoes Lee. You were the best and we love and miss you. I am so glad to know you will be in heaven to welcome each of us home, but I sure will miss you until then.

Cousin Lee you are now with the strongest of women Aunt Joan (your Momma), Ole Momma (Mamaw Margaret), Aunt Millie, along with many other beloved family members. May peace be with the family and friends in this time of mourning and lift up your sorrows and trust that God is with you during this time. We are all praying and thinking of each and every one of you as you face the days ahead. I think Lee would want all of us to carry on his great big smile to bring happiness to others on our journey.

It was a great pleasure meeting Lee's family, Timi & Bobby, I want to thank you for allowing me the oppertunity to speak at his service. He was truly a good man and I'm certain that he will be missed. I'm here if you guys need anything at all.

Dean

I will remember you Lee as a man who could walk into a room and spread sunshine with your laughter and smile. I did not know you well, but to meet you was to know you. In my memory you will be remembered as...."Lee, the man with the smile for everyone."

Goodbye my dear friend....Timi, Toni and Sammy wherever you are may peace be you and your family. So many farewells as the years pass us by. Time to go dig through mounds of pictures looking for that one photo that bring it all back.

Shari, Bobby, Court,
Sorry for your loss, it seemed like Lee was a great person, Shari you tell little stories that made us smile. I know yall will miss him alot. Just remember he is watching out for you all now! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
love you,
Denise

Dear friend, brother, encourager, and Dear to my heart, LEE: You have totally been there for me to inspire me with courage, spirit, or confidence. You have been there for me as though I was part of your family. Your friendship will forever be with me, and I will always remember you because you have touched my heart in a multitude of ways. I love you, LEE, and I thank God for the special time we had together. You are such a good person and a good influence on us all: always full of life, always full of love, always smiling, always happy to lend a hand, always there for your family and friends! There is no doubt, I am positive, that everyone has a great love for you, brother! You will continue to be deeply missed around here. LEE, God bless you in the ways that He alone can bless! xo

Uncle Lee, I miss you so much already! I'm really gonna miss having you around to tell us if there are enough "friggles" in our homemade gravy, and to help us identify "papershell birch" trees at Dam B :) You have helped make so many of my good memories, and i will cherish them forever. I never thought that you would be gone so soon, but I know that God has a reason for everything that He does. I love you Uncle Lee!

Uncle Snookie so sorry for your lost...We are praying for the family..God Bless

LEE WE GOING TO MISS YOU VERY MUCH AND WE WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND YOU WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN.LOVE ALWAYS THE TREVINO FAMILY!

LEE YOU WAS MY BIG BROTHER, COUSIN AND MY HEART. I WILL NEVER FORGET ALL THE GOOD TIMES AND LAUGHTER WE HAD TOGETHER. I HAVE ALOT MORE TO TELL YOU BUT I WILL BE HERE FOREVER. I LOVE YOU AND WILL MISS YOU ALOT. LOVE ALWAYS SHARON RIVERA.

I LOVE U AND GOING TO MISS U ALOT! U WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN! I WILL NEVER FORGET ALL THE TIMES U MADE ME LAUGH! U ARE THE BEST BIG COUSIN EVER! LOVE ALWAYS TISHA AND GIRLS!

Lee, we didn't have all the time we should have had together I wish we would have had more. I love and miss you. Aunt PAuline

We will all miss you. God bless

I never would have thought I would be doing this in a million years, but I know God has his reasons and we have to accept that. I am blessed that i got to talk to you the couple of days before you was gone. I talked to you the day of. I will miss you deeply and I will love you forever. I was blessed to have known you!!!!!!!

Uncle Lee, there is not many words to express what you meant to me, everytime we saw each other we always made plans to do things together. You taught me how to swim, how to throw a bottle rocket and how to cook eggs. I remember standing behind you and watching you dance while you cook. I remember all the laughs we shared. Our last time together you let me drive the Miata around the parking lot in front of cops and you laughed as i did it and said that was the Meadows in me as i parked before the cops saw me. We made so many plans that will never be fulfilled now but i will see you one day. I love you Uncle Lee, you nephew Sean.

There are no words to tell you what you meant to me, you was my brother, my cousin, my best friend and at the end they said I was your wife, but more than anything you was my heart!! People say things will get better with time but i dont think there is enough time left for me to fill this hole in my heart but I know I will see you one day so until then the memories I have will have to carry me through. I love you Lee!!

Lee, I don't think you ever knew what kind of impact you had on our lives. You made us laugh and smile every time we looked at your face or even just said your name. There is no one in the world quite like you, you have given us so many good memories. I just hope you knew how special you were to us and how much we love you. We will miss you so much.
Love you,
Bob,Shari, & Court

Bubba Lee !!!
I love you so much . Even though me and you didn't really show how much we loved each other I know and you know we have special place in our hearts for each other. I miss you so much !!! Well I have so many thing I could say to you but, I couldn't type it all because I would be here FOR EVER !!!
Well, I love You And I Miss you !!!

Well Brother, Please let moma know what all 'WE' have done in the past few years, don't leave out no details. Lee only you an god no the empty hole in my heart.BIG BROTHER'Ihave to say 'EVERYTHING'is for a reason. I have to except that. My prayers go to our family.So make sure you take care of makin sure the prayers i pray get answered. Your 'BIG SISTER' Timi Lynne. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't know how i'll make it without your morning call.You'll always be in my heart.
Love,Aunt Betty

Your laughter will be greatly missed,as will your friendship and compassion and love.
All my love,
Neicy

to an awsome son, and brother we love you more than life itself and you will be missed more than words describe we love you and will miss you always and forever

Life will never be the same without you. You were truely my soul mate. Wait for me, I'll be put in the urn with you. I love you with all my heart and soul.