Jill Austin Trainer

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Shelby Marie October 2, 2014

I've held my life together pretty good for everthing that I have been through. I can't believe that at 21 years old I've already lost both of my parents. Dad just died August 29th, 2014. I'm trying to hold my emotions together, but sometimes it just gets real hard. I've found God throughout this past year. Im learning more and more about him everyday. Sometimes it makes me wish I would have known him more as a child. My wedding day will be so hard not having neither one of you there. I wish you would have gotten to meet the love of my life, Noe. He is absolutely a remarkable person. He has made a big impact on my life and how I see love. I know what real love is. I am thankful you nor dad are struggling in this horrible world these days. I need strength to make it through. God, please give me strength to overcome every burden in life.

I love and miss you so much.

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Shelby Marie June 18, 2012

I wish i wouldve walked on the other side of that bed when we walked into the room.... I love you mama

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Shelby Marie December 31, 2011

heyy mama, its new yearss. another year withoit yoi. i misss you sooooo much! i love you mama. Ill make you proud of me (: i promisee

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Shelby July 18, 2011

Hey mama, its cruisee time (: Glad you'll be able to see me have fun! i miss you!!!
love you (:ooooh and Cyanna loves you too (:
ahhaa.
-Shelby&&Cyanna!

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Shelby May 19, 2011

hey momm, its been awhile. i would've loved for you and dad to both be there tonight at graduation. I really miss you. its getting easier now but yet its still hard. thats why i wanted dad there but the judge made his decision... minimum of 10 years??? yeah.. just found that out today... dad dont even know... i was on the phone with him today and he was like sayin he would have turned himself in cause he only has a little while left. welll he can forget that.... )): i just wish you were here. i wish everything was normal... i feel like i was the only one without parents there. I just wish some things wouldnt have happened. i wish i wouldve gotten to see you... well im very tired. its like 1 lol. well goodnight i love you, so much.

-Shelby Tarie Trainer

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Shelby LA March 7, 2010

i tell people i need you everyday, i do.
im going through such a haard time right now, i still cant even believe you passed away.......
i love you....

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Shelby LA February 23, 2010

I miss you so much all the time. Me and Ty broke up for good. I wish I could talk to you, I love you do much mom...

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Shelby AL December 3, 2009

You're so beautiful. I miss you so much.. I wish I could know your here watching over me.. I never feel your presence...I miss and live you with all my heart!!

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shelby sulphur, LA April 11, 2009

Hey mom,
Yeah I saw you yesterday. Tried writing a note to you but got pretty frustrated. This BC is really getting to me. I don't like it, makes it seem like I'm about to have to start needing help.your help.. I wanna start calming down,.. God its already been like 9 months. I will go see you in about 4 more. I promise ill. Be there...no matter what,noones gonna stop me.. Ill run away to see you if I have to. I now have my license and when I didn't have it I used to always think, I will go see mom a lot when I get my license, she needs it.I'm reallly glad ty is in my life now to pull me through this. I want people to understand how I feel, it doesn't feeel like many do... Welll mom I hope you like your flowers.. I reallly do love you. Wish ty wasn't the ONLY one that ever holds me sometimes. I miss sleeping with you.

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shelby sulphur, LA January 30, 2009

You know how a lot of people who have lost a close relative say they can feel their presence? I don't know why, but I can never feel your presence. Never have, I wish I could. It depresses me a lot. I've been doing pretty good lately with stressing out over you and stuff. But its going to hit me hard on the 4th. I can already feel it. It'll be a half a year. Doesn't even feel like it. I have my license, and I know a while back, I planned to come and see you whenever I got it. Didn't get that opportunity. Never will be able to either. I want to see you. I miss you. I want you here. All these kids who have their moms, like my friends. And my own boyfriend, ty, mama you reallly needed to meeet him, he's an amazingg guy. I'm sure you can see that. I wish you could see me growing up, wish you could be there at my wedding whenever I get married.I wish you could baby me and hold me close. I just want that, because I feel like I've never really had it.and I see it, and it just makes me so jealous, makes me wanna just cry. Because I want it and I KNOW I CANNOT have it ):
I love you mama. And I miss you SO much. Its going to be hard living without you. I hope I can feel you one day, and talk to you. I miss that.

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Shelby Sulphur, LA December 1, 2008

I'm having all these weird dreams about you.
It makes me feeel like your unsafee,..

i neeed you here with mee,
i miss you.

for thanksgiving, i said i'm thankful that you are in a better place..
but these dreams make me not feel like it.
i love you mama, i reallly doo..

i hope you know that, by now.

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Shelby LA October 13, 2008

Hey mama,
today was my birthday..
i missed you calling and telling me happpy birthday. it was different.
i hope your doing good up there, i lovee youu,...

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Shelbyy Sulphur, LA October 4, 2008

heyy mom.
today is homecomingg. i really wish you could be here with me & see mee.
i miss you so muchh. :(
i hopee your doing good up theree.
iloveyoualott mom.
i always have & always will.
remember that...

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Sean LA August 19, 2008

I really didn't expect any of this to hit me this hard. I thought I had been preparing myself for this for a long time. I've shut you out our lives for so long and now your gone and never coming back. I really hope you know how much I loved you and how much I wish things would of been different. I love you so much Mama....Always and Forever! I'm sorry I didn't get to say Good Bye.

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Shelby Trainer Sulphur, LA August 14, 2008

Hey mom,
Happppy birthdayy.

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Lanie AL August 8, 2008

Hi shlebys mom.Im sorry to hear that u passed away and i will be sure to take care of shelby with everything i have and i love her to death and i wish that she could have saw u it would have meant alot to her.I would have to loved to meet u ;your daughter is plain fool of awesomeness and knowing that she most likely got it from u is amazing.
R.I.P Shelbys mom.

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Shelby Trainer Sulphur, LA August 8, 2008

Hey mom,.. i just wanted to say that i will never forget you, ever. Right now, it doesnt really seem like you are gone because we have been away from eachother so long. I mean, every now and then i think of it.. & im sitting there thinkingg.. "mamas really gone now, shes really gone" & i get reallly sad.. but then again at times, i still feel that you are here. I'm getting a cremation necklace thing to have you with me, always. Its going to be a silver cross. Mrs. Ann is giving me money to help pay for it. But, you know. your worth any price. I need to thank her for that, & you do too. It's a very nice & caring thing for her to do for me. I feel so bad for not reallly making an effort to come and see you when you asked me to. I'm reallly sorry. Whats gets me the most is that when i did go.. you were gonee, forever.. & i'm soo angry that i didn't even get too see you, at the memorial, just one last time. It just gave my hopes up. i wanted to at least be near your real body one last time. but i realize that the funeral people did what they needed to do. i'm sure your pretty happy where you are.. im sure gonnna misss you. alot mama. and the question thats always going to be in my head is, Why? & im always going to regret not seeing you mama.. i wish you wouldnt have left so early. but i guess it was time to go. no more sufferingg. its all gone. maybe one day i'll see you up there. I love you soo much mama, and dont ever doubt that, i would give anything just to have you back right now.

Your youngest daughter,
Shelby . .

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Mystina Denby Beaumont, TX August 7, 2008

Jill was a wonderful person with a good heart, we'll all miss her.

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Leiah Baird Lake Charles, LA August 7, 2008

Ethel,

I'm so sorry for your loss. I know Jill's now found the peace you so desperately wanted her to have. Please know that you and your family are in my prayers.

Leiah Baird

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