Hey, baby, my day was good yesterday, got a lot of work done still have a lot to do. Courtney just loves driving that red car, she is taking very good care of it. I can tell it I see her coming down the highway, how many red Miata with smashed rear end do you think there are? LOL I go to my counselor today. I texted your sister yesterday, she was having a very bad day, I'm worried about her, she needs to come down here and stay with me, we could help each other. I sent her a picture of you and said " What would he tell you to do?" Didn't hear back from her, If I dont hear from her by Monday, I might go to Tyler to see if I can find her. I want her to come here dry out, get in counseling with me, and start her life over, and I know she can do it. You think you and God can help me with this. I know God can, but do you think he will? I can't hardly help myself, maybe we can help each other. Got to go to work. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU MY LOVE, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, SOON???
Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Good morning, Sunshine!! Sure wish I could have got up with you this morning. Oh,well. I'm going to work hard today so I can go to the beach with Courtney this weekend. This will be the first time I have gone down there since you died. I hope its a good experience and not a bad one! I dont need anything else to go bad. I just dont know who is going to take me to the third sand bar, to fish for shark. God, God, I miss you so much, when will this stop???? God it dont seem fair, I finally found someone that liked what I liked, laugh at what I laugh at, wanted to do things in the future that I wanted to do, and YOU TAKE HIM!!!Don't see the fairness in it. Got to go, Lee. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. WAIT FOR ME!!
Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Slept all day Sunday, didn't get up until 5:00pm went back to sleep at 11:00pm got up today at 7:30am, shouldn't be to tired but I am. My mother called me yesterday, I'm going to see her Tuesday at lunch. She's lonely too. Heart hurts today, I wish I could get mad at you for leaving me, but all I can do is CRY. Got to get to work, I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, TIL WE MEET AGAIN.
Monday, September 27, 2010

Had a okay time with Courtney and Mike. Just dont seem able to have a good time since you left. I cant wait to go to the grief support class at Broussard's. I have to find something to help me through this. I'm so sorry you didnt get to meet Monique. I should have told her about you, like you told me to. I thought I knew best, but I didn't. Sorry! I miss you so much. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART, HOPE WE MEET AGAIN SOON.
Sunday, September 26, 2010

Well, I worked today, got Dolly caught up, I'm, getting ready to meet Courtney & Mike at Cotton's tonight. Had a good time at Paint with a Twist, founded some pictures I want to paint and put in my bedroom, I think if I change it I will be able to sleep in there, since I haven't been able since you left me. I know you didnt leave me because you want to or I hope you didn't. I'm so confused I dont know what's what!!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND MISS YOU. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, WAIT FOR ME.
Saturday, September 25, 2010