Travis Lee Meadows

Good morning, the suns out and its beautiful, now it only you were here. Didn't go to grief support last night because the first night is hard. After looking at Monique's christmas pictures I wish now I had gone. I guess loving you cost me a daughter. I stayed as long as I could 35 years. I still care for him just not in love....Maybe in time she will get over it or maybe not....But loving you was the greatest thing in my life except for my kids. " I would rather have a short life of love with you than a life time of normal with someone else. I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.....Wait for me....

Good Morning my love. Its raining, raining wish I was in bed. Going to get my eye fix today at 10:00am. I play pool tonight..going to see it Courtney will come get me because it is suspose to rain all day. I don't know when you blow the back off if it cause a leak or what, but it leaks nows..Water doesn't get inside but it gets in beween the walls. I love you with all my heart and soul......UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me.....

Good Morning my love, I got a writing from Steve, and he must be in my head and heart. Because this is just how I feel:

"It’s like screaming and no one can hear.....
You always feel ashamed...
That some one could be that important...
That without them...
You feel like nothing'''
NO ONE WILL UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH IT HURTS!!!
If you’re hopeless...
But nothing can save you...
Then when it’s over...
And it’s gone...
U wish you could have ALL the bad stuff back.....
So you can have ALL the good!"

Gosh, What you think??? I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.
Wait for me.....

Talked to your friend Steve for awhile at 4:00am this morning The end of the year is here and business is picking up. I think Steve and me are going to do a little talking about you .... Its our time now....I love and miss you so very much, until my heart stops beating.

Well, its the first day of the year. I'm looking forward to the year......I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING.....

Missing you something awful. I LOVE YOU UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me. Just can't talk to day, but I love you so much.

I love you my love......I think I might be better off, if I don't try to forget who you were and what you were...You will always be my heart beat...God!! Why is this so hard, why would God bring you into my life then take you away with no good byes...No Nothing......We had so many plans......Got to get to work before I start to cry. KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING..Wait for me....

Good morning Sunshine, Hopefully today will be better than yesterday. I'm working on yearends for a few clients. Going to be busy for the next month. I'm still trying to get that movie. Still trying to get that l*****...Know that I love you until my heart stops beating....Talk tomorrow...Wait for me...

Hey, things are better today...Go to the Races with Diane tonight. Worked alittle while today... Not much... Got to go KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING......Wait for me.....

Well, Christmas Eve is over, Christmas Day is over, and in a few hours my birthday will be over. This has been the hardness week I have even been thru short of your death. I miss you so much, sometimes I wonder why! If I get thru this I should be in good shape until Jan. 9, when you turned my heart upside down. I keep asking what was God thinking, but I get no answer. Know that I will always LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, UNTIL MY HEART STOPS BEATING. Wait for me........