James "Bootsey" Douglas Brown

Today is November 13th 2010 , just 14 days that you will be gone for 1 year. I still miss you, but things are getting better . I'm trying to take care of myself but heart has other ideas. I know God has my life mapped out for me so whatever will be will be.
I still haven't seen Sean, I guess you know that Jennifer and Devin are going to be married in May of 2012. She hopes you will be there to give her away in spirit. She misses you so still. Her and Devin are taking good care of BooBoo.
Cricket follows me around everywhere since you have been gone. Sibyl is going to stay here and take care of me in my old age. Everything is going well here, we have remolded the inside of house, and I must say it look good. Enjoy yourself in heaven with your family and with The Holy Family.
Love you dearly,
Your loving wife,
Sylvia

Good morning Sweetheart. It is October 15, 2010, a lot has been going on.Sibyl has moved in with me since June 5th. I asked her to stay and take care of me till I go to meet my Lord. There is a lot of hostility going round. Kevin has disowed me and he doesn't know what he is missing, he also disowned his mother. If that is the way it is to be than so be it.
I don't see anyone much, kids and grandkids. I see Savannah, Caden and Bryce now and then.
They are disspoint in me for letting Sibyl live with me and for me renting out front b/r to the man she is going to marry. Sibyl and Jimmie are taking care of me, the house and yard. And I have company, no one came since you passed, Kim painted our room and Kenton put crown molding , I was trying to sell house and I wasn't going to just give away our home. I have decided to stay where I am till I depart of this life. Well Jim, Christine, and John came and mowed yard a couple of times. You know me, I won't ask any of my children to do anything for me. If they don't know I am lonley shame on them.
I love you still and am not interest in going out with a man, I'll never marry again.

It's been 43 days since your passing. I still miss you my love. I find it hard to read the notes written to you without crying. I watced the Video of your memorial service and it made me cry , I guess I just wasn't up to watching it yet.
I'm still trying to get things settled and get bills paid. I'll be getting your SS instead of mine , since yours is higher, it sure will help me. I know you are without pain or sadness.
I know you were happy to see your mother, Dad, Shirlee and Guy. Think of me sometimes and let me know you think of me too. I love you my darling.
Your darling wife, Sylvia

Just wanted to wish you a Happy Birthday

Today it is your birthday. I swear I heard you say something to me in my ear and felt your breath. on me. I think you were reminding me that you loved me..It is so lonley without you at my side.I didn't know I would miss you this much. Happy birthday my love.I love you and miss you so much.

James,
First I want you to know that even though we were never really talked much, that I loved you and thank you for helping my mom take care of us coonass hooligans. All of what I learned of fishing I learned from you. I think in a lot of ways we are alike, we both like to be alone to do our thing, we do not like big crowds.
I thank you for serving in the United State Navy defending our home, the United States of America against the imperialist Japanese and the Nazis of Germany. Later in my life I had the privilege of serving almost 21 years in the United States Air Force. I would not trade that for anything.
Know that you will be missed here and all you family loves you.

I'll always remember Dad everyday. I love him. God Bless Bootsie

Paw Paw I will miss you so much. I am so thankful to God that He gave me so much time with you this past month. I learned so much about you during these times. I came over and just lay in the bed with you and held your hand and kept you company. You gave me so much laughter this last month.
I wish I would have known a long time ago how you felt about me. I regret not having spent more time with you all these years, but I know you forgive me. You never said anything bad to me or made me feel bad about myself. You didn't mix words and when you didn't like something, you said what was on your mind. No one had to 2nd guess what you were thinking.
I love you with all my heart and I will miss you so very much. I never called you Dad, but you WERE my dad where it really counted. You didn't ever pretend to be something just so others would like you. I remember the times after you and Mom married, and I would come in from school and just go up to your bedroom and talk to you about different stuff. You never pushed me away or made me feel like you didn't want me around. It is amazing that you married a woman (my mom) with 6 kids still living at home. That was a big thing to do, but you did it and hung in there all these years. I hope you know that you meant a lot of each and everyone of us.
I am left with only good memories of you Paw Paw. I was able to tell you just how much I loved you and I KNOW without a doubt that you left this world loving me too. You touched a lot of lives but you never compromised your beliefs and you never changed for anyone. Watch over me from heaven and I will think of you often. I hope you will let me know that you are here with me from time to time.
I know you are with God now and I"m so glad you are no longer suffering. When I cry, it is tears for my loss and not for you being in Heaven, in a better place where there is no more pain and no more tears. And as much as I may cry, I will also remember the good time and I will laugh and rejoice in all that you have left me with.
I love you always. Sibyl

Paw Paw I will miss you. You were my dad for the last 34 years. I love you so much.

I miss you so much my sweetheart . I know sometimes I expect you to come from behind me and give me a pat on my butt. I know you are in a better place where there is no pain only joy and hapiness. Be sure to save me a place next to you when my times comes to go meet you. I thank you oh so much for for loving my children as your own. Yes we have talked a lot about having no kids of our own, because at the time you were trying to get off all those pills. But then you used to tell me you wish we would have had one of our own, that was one regret that you had. We spent 34 years together and they were betiful years even with the trials and tribulations we had, our Lord was always with us and helping us to be as one always. I am so glad we got to get married in the church. I know you loved me and I thank you for that. At times I did wonder if you did or not . You used to always say you wished we would have met way back when, and we could have really have had a bunch of kids, yes it would have been so nice.Keep watch over me my sweet one. I love you and miss you oh so much. my darling. Till I see you once again. I send you a big hug and Kiss to you.